"Let's go" Jake said pulling me along with him. He ordered the three guy three guy that came in with him to clean up the mess and get rid of the body. After that he dragged me down the stairs and out of the store to where the Escalade was. When I say he dragged me out mean he actually did, becuase I was in a trance and he had to move me himself. As soon as we got out we were followed by Josh and Blaze.
"Drop him off and then take the car back home." Jake told Josh throwing him the keys to the Escalade.
"Yes Boss" He said got into the car. Jake opened the door of his 2010 Audi A5 coupe and once I was in, he closed it and went around to get in. He started the car and we drove in silence. I rested my head from the window and focused on the city that we were living behind. I tried hard to focus on something, on anything besides were my mind wanted to take me. But as hard as I tried I couldn't. I couldn't help but think over everything he said. I couldn't help but feel the guilty that was eating me up inside right now. Knowing that our parents always tried as hard as they could to keep us away from his business, well at least the illegal ones. And how right after they got killed we did everything they wouldn't want us doing. Not that this is an excuse but somebody had to do it. It was already there so someone had to care of things. Just becuase they are no longer with us doesn't mean that everything they worked very hard for, everything they did to get us where we are today had to go to waste. So many years and so much effort and hard work went into this business to just forget about it. Pretend they died for nothing. I couldn't do that. We couldn't do that, that's why Jake took over. I can't say that I didn't have other choices, because I did. Jake was so opposed to it, It was hard to get him to let me do anything. But I was depressed and kind of suicidal and I guess he was afraid I would do something stupid. So letting me work for him was his way of keeping me close.
I don't blame my brother for anything. I don't think he's responsable for what I am or what I do. I never been one of those girls that just becuase they are young they let people walk over them and use them to no end. I've always been hard headed and I don't let people make choices for me. It's true I do love Jake and I would do anything for him but that comes with the part of being orphans. We are all we got left and would do anything for eachother. Now is that so wrong to want to protect the only person you can really count on? The only person you can really trust? To anyone on the outside that doesn't know our story it might seem strange that he let his teenage sister get involve in this his business when you know you could die any day. Like I said before, he was just keeping me close. I mean I did paint my room black. If that doesn't scream something's wrong than what does? I might be a killer today, but it was my own choice you do everything I have done, I might not be consired and adult yet but I'm mature enough to know what's right and wrong. I mean how could I not? The things I've been throught in my life no person should see or do. I mean come on. My 15th birhtday present was my parents dead bodies in a box...
And I sometimes wonder why Aiden left. It was too many things together. Our world came crashing down on us, everything was just too much. I would have left too if I was brave enough to be on my own.You know it was a day that I will never forget. It was Mines and Aiden 15 birthday and mom and dad were no where to be found. Around 2 pm the doorbell rang, Aiden opened it and there were two huge presents on the front door. Bows and everything. I remember Aiden was so excited as he screamed for me to hurry up and get down to were he was.
I couldn't stop smiling when I saw the boxes, we thought it was some crazy birthday present from mom and dad. We couldn't have been more right.
'Happy birhtday kids. I hope you like what I picked out for you.Have fun and enjoy your birhtday. And eventhougth is not Jake's birthday, I want you to share this with him. I know he will love it just as much. You will never forget this day'
