Darkside

20

"Y/N?" His voice was calm and soft in your ear, but you could hear the undertone of worry. You didn't answer but kept your head on his chest as more tears than you'd imagined possible streamed down your face. His chest was warm, comfortable.

Felt like home.

Regretting the thought instantly, you jerked your head away, immediately missing the warmth. Training your gaze to the ground and turning away from him, you suddenly felt embarrassed. 

What were you doing? For heaven's sake, you had only known this man for around two months! And here you were, revealing the weakest side of yourself to him.

Sniffling loudly, you aggressively wiped your nose on your arm, trying to blink out the remainder of tears that had accidentally come out even after you proclaimed you were 'done'.

Lord knows you were far from done with crying, but you had to at least compose yourself at the moment.

You could feel Jimin staring a hole into your head, almost could feel the intense worry that he felt. For some reason, this both annoyed you and made you feel even weaker.

Why were you so affected by what he thought of you as?

"What do you want?" You asked, your voice cold and unfriendly, sharp and cold as ice. Jimin shifts uncomfortably, seeming surprised at your tone. He hesitates before speaking.

"I... wanted to come to check on you," He mumbles quickly, finally lowering his gaze. "You hadn't visited or contacted us in a week, and I wanted to make sure you were alright."

Though his words warmed your heart, you refused to admit it. You couldn't allow this to happen, you thought, as you felt your chest flutter slightly. No, no, no, you couldn't allow yourself to fall for him.

Laughing bitterly, you continued to taunt him. "Well, now you've fucking seen me, yeah? Crying and weak. Am I 'alright' enough for you to leave?" As you spoke on, you felt the embarrassment and anger dwell in your chest. You felt it a bubble and boil in your chest till it was overflowing, and you couldn't stop the hurtful words from spilling out.

"Why do you care if I'm alright anyway? Jungkook's recovered now, he doesn't need me anymore! Heck, you don't need me around either! No one ever wants me around, so pray, tell me, why do you care!" You shouted at him.

But Jimin doesn't give you any sort of reaction, his face remaining perfectly blank, except for the slight hardening of his eyes.

"What do you want from me? I've already given everything I could give, alright! And now, when everything finally turns peaceful again, of course, something's got to come in and ruin it! Why? Because of me," you laugh maniacally, feeling the tears well up in your eyes again. "Because of my pathetic life."

You stay silent, taking deep breaths to compose yourself, trying desperately to blink away any tears before they could start to fall and you'd make a further embarrassment of yourself. 

The kids standing near you had all turned to stare before running off in the opposite direction, possibly calling their parents, or maybe just wanting to stay away from the raging lunatic that was you. 

The park is quiet for a while, with the exception of screaming from the children playing. You can hear some crickets chirping in the distance. Jimin still remains silent, motionless by your side as he waits for you to continue your rant. But you don't. All the raging anger inside you had suddenly disappeared, leaving you a mess of guilt and regret.

You felt heavy with guilt for yelling at Jimin. Possibly the only person that you felt like talking to had to suffer through your rage. It wasn't fair.