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Sunrise to Sunset

The sun was slowly starting to set and I had only two things on my mind; how mad Darry would be at me for ditching the gang and the switch in my back pocket

FIZZLES POV

I walked through the front door of the old house, hoping everyone was gone so i wasn't yelled at in front of the gang.
I saw Darry sitting in the arm chair, reading a paper and Sodapop passed out on the couch.

i assumed Ponyboy was in his room.

As soon as i walked through the door, Darry jumped up and threw his paper down

"do you have any idea what time it is? it's almost 1 am!" he yelled, pointing a finger at me.

Soda slowly started to wake up and I glanced over at him before looking back at Darry

"look, i'm sorry...I got lost."
i lied

"bullshit! you know this town as well as anyone else! you know what, fizz... i'm tired of this! i'm tired of you running off and doing your own thing! you are fourteen years old! you can't be doing this!"

I took a deep breath
"fifteen. I turned fifteen last month! you'd remember that if you pulled your head out of your ass!"

I started to head upstairs but he grabbed my arm and turned me around

"this. this isn't over...we'll talk about this in the morning."

I just nodded and went into my room.
Ever since my mom and dad passed away my relationship with Darry had gone down hill.

He tried to replace mom and dad and it was not working. He still saw me as a little girl and not as a teenager.

He made me feel like a problem... someone that's unwanted and a burden. It was constant screaming matches between Darry, Pony, and I. Soda just sat back and watched.

Because of this i stayed out of the house sunrise to sunset. or even past sunset. Sunrise to sunset i was out on the town with the gang. Causing trouble, getting into fights, going to the movie house, or even the dingo.

I stayed out of the house sunrise to sunset cause i felt like my own brother hated me. I used to cry when he'd yell but i was now numb to it...I just yelled back.
I used to be a sensitive person but after mom and dad died I hardened up. I was still the softest in the gang...but i was hardened and tough.

Sunrise to sunset I was worried about whether Darry and i would fight later that night or if things will be peaceful for once but things were almost never peaceful.

I walked over to my desk and picked up my report card that was the topic of last nights argument.
"Fizzle Rose Curtis! I will not accept you getting D's on your report card!  You are not the only one who lost mom and dad so stop acting like it! we all lost them too but we are getting along with our lives...you should too."
His words rang in my head like a gunshot.

I was too tired to change so i just took off my shoes and laid down.

It had been hard for me to sleep. After our parents died i slept in Darry's bed for a few months. I'd wake up crying and He was the only person who could calm me down. But after our relationship started going downhill I went back to sleeping in my room. I hadn't slept well since.

I closed my eyes and I tried to dream of before.
Before mom and dad died...
before Darry got hard and mean...
before i was a teenager and life got tough...
before this mornings sunrise when i was fast asleep...