Just A Farm Gal

Chapter Twelve

Our first night as a co-habiting couple went well.

Noah cuddled me tightly all night and I loved every minute of it. I felt content and loved in his arms. I was annoyed at myself that I ever pushed him away before, but it was my stupid, stubborn attitude.

Today was Sunday and I inwardly groaned, knowing that we would be seeing Eddie at the church. He had made no attempt to contact me since the fight and I wouldn't be contacting him either.

We woke early as usual. My eyes fluttered open and landed on my engagement ring. I smiled as I watched it glittering, even in the darkness. It was so beautiful. I felt so loved but I was also nervous. I was scared to get married. To be someone's wife. To have different responsibilities. I tried to push my anxious feelings to the back of my head as we got out of bed.

Noah was in heaven with our full English breakfast, he said it was the only thing he missed from London and then he offered to take us to church.

"You ain't just takin' us, boy, you're comin' in." Mama ordered.

Noah rolled his eyes, "Ok, if I must. I'm not very religious though, sorry."

"I respect that but now y'all live under my roof. No usin' the lords name in vain and church every Sunday."

"Mama, stop bein' bossy." I laughed.

"He knows I love him. He's goin' to be my son-in-law soon." Mama chuckled.

"Right, let's get the farm work done and then we can get ready to go." I stood up after finishing my breakfast.

I was quiet as I tended to the animals this morning and I know that Noah had noticed it. He pulled me to the side before we went back into the house to get ready for church.

"Something's bothering you." Noah started.

I shook my head, "I'm fine." I lied.

"Hal, we need to be honest with each other. I don't want to push you away in any way again."

"It sounds stupid, but I just don't wanna lose myself in this relationship, like a fairy-tale. I wanna stay independent and hard-workin'. This farm is my life. I don't wanna be just someone's wife. It's scary. Y'all know that you are my first boyfriend so it's all new to me." I explained.

"You won't be just someone's wife. You will be my wife." Noah grinned. "I understand that, Hal, I really do. It's why I fell in love with you; for your independence and your fierceness. I don't want you to lose that either. I just want to spend the rest of my life with you. Doing what you want to do. I've lost you once before and I'm not losing you again."

"So you're ok with me keepin' the farm and stayin' in Texas?"

"Of course, this is where we live now. This is where we will raise our children, just like your mum and dad did."

"Whoa, children?"

Noah laughed. "Yes, do you want them?"

"Of course but I've only just turned 21 so maybe in a few years."

"I agree. I want you to myself for now."

"I don't want to hold you back. Y'all don't miss London?" I asked him.

"Not one bit. I told you working there was meaningless and empty without you in my life. I want to live where you want to live. Be wherever you are, I promise." Noah reassured me.