The one who bought my heart

Dilemmas

                                                                              Geoff's Pov

I received a text from Grace as I was getting ready to go to sleep on the couch. Kathy was still extremely pissed off at me for letting myself get too close to Grace. But to be honest, I couldn't stop myself from falling head over heels for the young lady. I mean, what is there not to love about her. She is very intelligent and multitalented. She is taking like 20 different courses for 20 different things, like writing, photography, music teaching, acting, and other things. But as I read the message from Grace, my heartbreaks. Because she is saying that she could never love me and didn't want to ruin my relationship with Kathy because of the love that we share. The truth is I don't know if we really love each other anymore. I mean I still love Kathy like the first day I met her and she is extremely jealous of Grace but I don't know if it is really the same or it came to a dead end but we are pretending that we still love each other. We have raised William together, and it has been fun, but we can never agree on what really is the best for the little man. But Grace believes that I can't love her at all because I love Kathy. But that isn't true. I do love her. Everything that I have done has been because I love her. 

I wouldn't have undressed her to check her wounds after she got beat up had I not love her like I did. I wouldn't risk my marriage to help her if she was just a friend. I am sleeping on the couch because I love her. And she wants to talk to Kathy to tell her that we can never be a thing and that she shouldn't be mad at me for helping a friend. Honestly I didn't want to tell her that Kathy made me sleep on the couch and have her talk to Kathy about it because I kinda want to leave to get with Grace, but I can't leave Will behind. I'm sure that Kathy will want to keep him, and I can't lose my best bud because of a girl. So I told Grace that Kathy and I were fine and that I was worried about her. Which I was worried about her. After all, she was almost caught by the police to be shipped back to her abusive drunken mom, she has passed out and to top the cake she has been beaten up by a totally random person for seemingly no reason. She has been through hell, and yet she is still willing to help others with their problems. I have never met a stronger woman in my life. 

I figure that I should offer her a position in Voiceplay so that I can see more of her if Kathy and I are to stay together. I just talked to the others about what we should do and if we should let her join if she wants to, but the main reason I want her to join is to see her on a regular basis without getting yelled at by Kathy. I know that if she chose to stay that she would only yell at me for seeing Grace more than I should. Even though I want her to leave me. Why must this be a real-life version of Romeo and Juliet, except the fact that this version is the one where Juliet doesn't love Juliet. But Grace says something about hoping that someone really loves you, but they see no reason to stay, so they pretend not to love you so that it is easier to leave. Could this be the same for those who weren't in a relationship to begin with? Could Grace really love me, but since I love Kathy, she pretends not to love me so that it won't hurt when I say that I don't love her? Could she believe that she doesn't love me to protect everyone involved from heartache? Is that why Eli and Tony have been looking at us differently? Do they know what weighs on Graces heart? I know that Tony knows that I have feelings for Grace. Could she have told him something that she doesn't want anyone else to know? I guess that I will have to talk to him the next time I see him to see if I can pull out any information about anything that Grace has told him in secret. I will also have to hit Eli up to see what he has to say about it. 

But to my ultimate sadness, Grace has to go to bed. I wish her sweet dreams and a good night, and she just says goodnight. She doesn't even confirm that we will be talking tomorrow. Does she not like talking to me? Why? Am I really that boring to her that this 10-minute conversation was enough to satisfy her for a couple of days? Well, since the only person that I want to talk to right is gone, I am going to go to sleep as well.