Why does it hurts more than cutting?
Why do i deserve living?
I can't bare seeing you, when all i see is emptiness.
Why can i speak without tearing up?
Why does it had to be me?
I just want to hurt myself more.
I just want to hug you.
And kiss you.
But.
We're not together anymore.
I thought about ending myself.
A lot then usual.
Each day i wake up, and just see pure sadness.
I feel actually numb.
Like something was ripped away from me.
Like i actually broke into pieces.
Everyone tried saving me.
Everyone tried cheering me up.
I think.
I wont have a future anymore.
It been awhile since i said "I love you".
It been awhile since i actually felt happy.
Everyday.
I feel like drowning in my own fault.
My sadness.
I cant bare, living anymore.
Why does it hurts more then cutting?
Why do i deserve living?
It still hurts talking to you.
I still choke my words.
I still have my suicidal being in me.
Its has been growing more and more.
I still think that we could be together.
But it still hurts to say no.
It was all my fault.
My feelings are numb.
I'm delirious outta my thoughts.
So.
Tell me.
Is it wrong.
To believe?
Why does it hurts more then cutting?
Why do I deserve living?
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The Selfless Me
Non-FictionSometimes, I just want to write out my feelings, y'know. It's okay to write what's going on in your head. It's okay to open a clean page and just write all the things you've held onto. It's okay to let loss on a piece of paper with a pen/pencil at...
