Together or never?

Chapter 5

I looked to my right to see vilu standing there with her arms crossed and a huge smile, my cheeks flush and I start to get really nervous, I look back at german and he looks like he's just froze or thinking of what to say. I looked down to the floor and to our luck jade walked in.
-what's going on- she said looking at us and I looked at her sternly but nervously as well, -n-nothing...j-jade- I sighed and walked out of the kitchen and decided to go for a walk so I grabbed my coat and flew out the door.
I was walking and thinking, I loved the kiss and it's wrong I shouldn't he's my brother in law and he's got a girlfriend, I feel like on the edge of crying, these things always happen to me.
I start picking up my space as I feel tears prick in my eyes and hopefully they will go away if I'm concentrating on something else.
-angie- I heard a male voice shout behind me, I turned my head to see who it was and it was german.
I wiped my eyes quickly and smiled reinsuring as he walked towards me, -I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you like that- he says sheepishly and I smiled shyly not looking at him, -it's okay I didn't mind- i admit and he smiled down to me as I glance up to him quickly.
-I should go- I say and go to walk away but he gently grabs my arm, -are you okay?- he says and I nod, -I'm fine- I say and I can feel my voice starting to shake. I go to walk away again but this time he takes my hands causing me to look up at him, I felt a tear run down my face and I couldn't wipe it because he had my hands gently do I just looked down instead.
-if your fine, why is there a tear running down your face?- he says and in swift movement wipes it, I look at him and he smiled caring at me and for a moment I feel loved and cared for just by his smile but it's wrong.
He gently pulled me into a tight hug and I couldn't hold my tears back for any longer as hard as I tried they just streamed down my face, I'm being silly I thought to my self and gently wiped my eyes and pulled away gently, -thanks german but I should go- I said and i avoided eye contact and walked away. I feel so bad for walking away but what happened earlier shouldn't happen.