You're Mine Now

Chapter 50

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Selena's pov
I walked in what felt like slow motion up to the door.
I felt scared to open , like I didn't know who was in there and I guess in a way I didn't. I didn't know if justin was really in there.
Hesitant sting I opened the door and stepped into the typical hospital room.
Old blue curtains over the windows, the same beeping heart rate sound, it was chilly but not bad.
Finally my eyes made their way to the one thing I almost wanted to avoid seeing.
And when I did, when my eyes landed in his sleeping, lost face,
I broke.
I pressed myself up against the wall and cupped my mouth, trying to be quiet as I cried.
I watched his chest move at a really slow pace, as t moved up and down, and up and down, and up and down.
His face held an expression that showed, he had a lot to think about, but he was too tired to think about it.
After calming myself down a but I slowly walked up and sat in the wooden blue chair next to his bed.
Should I hold his hand or would I wake him.
I crawled my fingers to his and laced them together, making sure he didn't wake. A few tears spilled out before I spoke up.
"When I was in, when I was in Jaid's room. And I was thinking of.. I felt like I, I, I know him though, and I know that I know his heart, and I know what he wouldn't do to hurt me. But I didn't realize I, I feeling so confident and feeling so great about us, and then it just be completely shattered. By one thing. By, something so stupid. But then you make me feel crazy, you make me feel like it's my fault.
I was in pain."
I squeezed my eyes shut, tears laced with pain falling into our hands.
I didn't really know what to say. There was so much I wanted to say to you, but I guess what I wrote in my book, was the only thing that really needed to be said.
"You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Hell over trip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no I can't escape
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
This is a modern fairytale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down, down, down, down
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants
It wants what it wants"
I squeezed my eyes closed and bowed my head, finishing, finishing everything I had to say, everything I wanted him to know, even if he didn't hear me, I feel like he did though.
"Open you eyes jay, please" I begged looked up at him with teary eyes.
" I know your alive but I need to see you, please, Justin, please"
I wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him, crying into his shoulder.
" Open your eyes Justin, just for a second, please?" I tried one more time.
I stood up my hand lingering in his.
I shook the rest of the tears out and grabbed my book, getting ready to walk out.
As I stepped from the bed I felt a weak grasp on my finger and I throaty mumble.
"Please, don't, go". My eyes widened and I spun around.
Gasping a smile spun on my face, and a few tears flew.
Justin's eyes were open, just a little but but enough for me to know he was awake.
His fingers lightly held mine and his voice was weak.
But it's okay, he was still here, he was okay.
"Justin" I finally whispered.
"Hey" he gave me a weak, confused smile.
"Hi" I smiled hugging him again, lightly so I wouldn't mess up his cords.
The I realized he probably wouldn't want me to do that.
"Sorry I just-" I started, as I climbed off him.
"It's okay, it's okay" he seemed very vulnerable and confused, but It was beautiful.
I smiled and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Do you feel okay? Should I call the nurse? Do you want me to get the boys? Or some water?"
"Selena" he cut me off , half smiling:
"Yeah?" I said getting ready to go her him what he needed.
"I'm fine" he whispered, then slowly but quickly, he put a hand under my chin and kissed his soft lips to mine.
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You guys wanted romance and jelena moments so I hope this is good, I tried:)