Estarossa

Chapter Seven

The part I write about the Rebellion is in German. It probably won't be correct as I'm not fluent enough in German to write that section without assistance and Esta will translate it into what it should be. Also, my writing goes weird and tiny on my screen I don't know about yours, sorry xx Side note: I got angry trying to do the German on my own with a dictionary and language app so I just put it all into google translate. XD. Hasn't been proof read. 

Estarossa's P.O.V.

So much has changed recently. I mean I have powers now but Doe died to awaken them. Those commandments are awful and when they finally get what they deserve my father finds is unacceptable. All my life he has berated me for being weak and incapable of using the darkness that is gifted to demons and now when I finally can and I prove it, he gets mad at me? I don't get it. It's honestly like he's incapable of loving. I'm back in my room now and I feel awful. Zel and I had an argument and now I feel awful. But Zel isn't the one for easy apologies. He won't talk to me now for ages and I mean ages. I can't believe how horrible I've been lately if this is what the gift of the darkness does to me I don't want it. Or is it my Rebellion? I read once it was rare. The book should be in my room right now. I stand and walk to my bookcase. It's tall and wide and none of the books has their names on their spines. This could take a while but not if I use my darkness. It creeps from me to the bookcase. I pull it back. I don't want to rely on it. It might be corrupting me and making me someone I'm not and I do not want that. I'm me and I'm not going to let anyone or anything change that about me. I've lasted this long without my darkness so I can sure as hell keep surviving without it if it's corrupting me.                                                                                                                                                                                                       I've been searching for the past hour. I'm so bored. Meliodas and Zeldris still haven't come home yet. I wonder what they are doing. Maybe they are talking about me. Saying how bad I am. I shake my head. I can't think that. They love me. They wouldn't have come into the forest to save me if they hadn't have loved me. They do love me, definitely. I just need to find out what's making me so different and how I can stop it. Then we can all be happy and only have the average sibling squabbles. I pull out another book. It's dark green and looks very old it's title is Dämonen. What is that, is it German? I think it is. Most stuff about original power is in German. This could be it. I put all the other books back and take the book Dämonen to my bed and go hunting for a book that will help me translate it.                                                                                                                                                                                                       Aha I finally found it. For some reason it was in Zeldris' room. i got out of there before he came home. I open the Dämonen book. The first passage was about the Rebellion. 

"Die Rebellion verdirbt ihren Besitzer und stellt sicher, dass der Dämon, für den sie begabt ist, so mächtig wie möglich wird. Aus diesem Grund ist es normalerweise für schwächere Dämonen geeignet."

It takes ages to translate but I've now finally done it. In sections, it's scribbled in notes on a page in my notebook. I can't believe it. It's saying that the Rebellion corrupts its owner. It will ensure the demon it's gifted to will become as powerful as it can be and that it's usually gifted to a weaker demon. I'm sure I don't have all the words but what that essentially says is that my new found power will keep corrupting me and corrupting me till I'm the stereotypical demon. You know, cruel, merciless, heartless, unloving, uncaring that kind of stuff. I don't want to be like that. I don't want to lose the things that are closest to my heart. I will protect everything I love and cherish. You'll see I won't let my power change me.                                                                                                                                                                                                      I hear the door slam downstairs. I jump and the book I'm reading drops to the floor. I stare at it. Zeldris storms into my room before I move to pick up.  He says nothing he drops to the floor. He doesn't bend knees or use his arms to slow his descent. He just... crumples. No other way to describe it. He looks at me. It's clear he isn't going to talk so I slide off my bed and grab book. I can feel him watching me the entire time. It's actually kind of unsettling. I want to run away, it's scaring me. I climb back onto my bed and continue reading. My eyes flicker to him. He's still staring at me. What does he actually want?  I keep reading and after five minutes it's too much. I turn to him.

"What do you want?" I ask him. He shrugs. 

"I'm waiting for Mel to find me. He's really pissed off," He says. I feel my eyes widen a fraction.

"What the hell did you do?" I ask anger hinting in the corner of my voice. He shrugs again. I hate it when he does that. 

"I told a lie," He says it so nonchalantly I scowl. I don't know what lie he's told but it must be really really bad if Meliodas is pissed  off. 

"I told him we stole his gift from that girl," He says leaning back on his arms.