Fabulous Fifteen: The Finale

Take It Back

On a lonely mountain which seemed to be where most of the team liked to have their breakdowns and existential crises- Jin was weeping into the top of his knees.

"Oh-ho-ho-ho . . . sniff, sniff, noooo." He wiped his eyes only to keep crying into his knees after.

Ugh, pathetic. Look at me being a sad excuse for a human being. Weeping because my first love and the person I hold closest to my heart is now bounded to some woman. He sniffed more as he stared ahead into the night sky. He was at the top of a cliff so he could see the sky in front of him. Below were trees. It was actually the same mountain which Tae killed himself at. . . but Jin didn't know that. What did that mean?

"She is with child and he is so . . . happy." He said the word 'happy' in a pathetic yet disgusted voice. "Without me." He continued to weep now.

Jin fell to his back in despair and cried while lying down that way. "How did this happen? I am supposed to be the greatest thing since the bread that is sliced. Why am I here alone and being pathetic? Why do I not get whatever I want and what I believe I deserve? That does not make the slightest bit of sense to me." He didn't get it at all. He was handsome, charming, he took care of everyone, he had personality for days, he smelled like scented roses- I mean come on. I would f*ck me in a heartbeat.

But not everyone thought that way.

Namjoon's face showed up in his mind and soon Pamela was next to him. There was now a wide shot of them with Namjoon's hands resting on her belly which now looked big.

"He has a child." Jin whispered. He was both very, very heartbroken and also happy for Namjoon. But of course the more negative feelings overpowered. Like they often did.

Jin's face which had been twisted up with emotion for so long now relaxed with tears leaking less aggressively and abundantly out of his eyes.

He remembered the man that he was now calling his boyfriend and did not really feel in the mood to date him anymore. "He was only a worker of the CIA though. He probably only dates me for his work." That made him sigh as he rolled to his side and held his hands under his head in a pillow fashion. He brought his knees up to his chest as well as if ready to sleep out on this cold lonely mountain, too tired to keep crying.

Suddenly he started to hear footsteps approaching him. His eyes had been closed but they opened up slowly so he could see what was going on.

Now he was aware of two feet before him.

His eyes looked from the feet up to the body and then the face looking down at him. "Humph. What?" Was all he said, sounding cold and uncaring.

"I came to check on you after you disappeared from the scene. Have you forgotten about my tracking skills?"

Jin rolled his eyes as Yoongi sat next to him where he lay. This summoned Jin out of his lying position so that he was now sitting up next to the guy. "I did not forget anything. I just thought that you and your wisdom brain would have thought it best to leave me be. Isn't it obvious that I need time alone for soul searching?" He sounded bitter and angry but it was all because he was really sad on the inside. It showed itself as anger because sometimes sadness did that.

"Soul . . . searching?" Yoongi questioned slowly.

Jin groaned. "Go away child. I need my alone time." He turned around now, giving Yoongi his back. "Go, move."

Yoongi did not go. He stayed and he even got up to be face to face with Jin. Now he was looking right at him, sitting before him.

The distraught Jin groaned, not wanting any of his children to see him in this ugly state. Why do I continue to fool myself? This is . . . He wanted to puke and to wail more by what he was about to think. Me. What I am. U-ugly and pathetic and . . . He did gag this time.