Married to mafia / Shinee Key ff

12

"I like you as a woman, not as a friend."

It looked like the time just stopped. My fork fell off my hand. I tried to keep a straight face , not showing any emotion. My heart beating fast. My mind running like a race car. I didn't know what to say , do or even think in this kind of situation. Honestly, I've had a really big crush on Jackson for so long now. I want to say yes. But the fact that I'm married, makes me rethink my decision . Even though I hate Key and all this marriage, I can't do it. It's called cheating.

"Jackson....." I sigh. "I'll be honest with you. I have had a crush on you for so long now. Trust me , as much as I want to say yes to you , I can't. I've waited a lot to make a confession to you but always stopped myself because I didn't want to ruin our friendship and I was afraid that you would have rejected me. If one of us had confessed at the other earlier or if I wasn't in this situation I am now , trust me , I would have said yes. And by doing so , I was going you be the happiest girl in the world. Trust me. But in this situation...." I looked at his eyes. I know he is hurt and I don't like it. I hated even more knowing that the reason which caused his sadness is me. I want to go and dig my grave. He doesn't deserve this.

" Jackson, love. You deserve a girl that will love and care for you and only you. " I held his hand. But he removed it and got up from the table. I did the same. He run his hand through his hair, I looked down. I feel so bad.

"Rose , the thing is that I want you and not that other girl. Can't you think of it?"
"What's the point of doing so? I'm married. It's called cheating."
"Rose! He goes with different girls every night , when he knows it pretty damn good that you are married together. He is the one that started all this. He doesn't respect you as his wife. He almost killed you that one time. He doesn't deserve to have you beside him. But I do! I may sound selfish but I don't care. I can give you that happiness you want and deserve. I can be that knight with the shiny armor for you." He came near me and held my hand. He lifted them up to his lips and gave them a light kiss. My heart is braking into pieces. "Let me be that knight. Let me be the reason you wake up. Please be the reason I wake up , the reason of my happiness, the sun of my rainy days. Please, Rose, please! " He got even near me and rested his forehead on mine's.

I don't know what to do. My mind is a mess. I'm a mess. My heart says yes , when my mind says no. What am I going to do?

"Jackson..... I....." He lifted his head up and looked at me straight into my eyes.

"I can wait. Don't tell me your answer now. Think about it and then answer. Think about what you want for once." I could see in his eyes the sadness that was in his heart.

"Jackson, I don't have that facility. I can't do that. The only way is if I talk Key into this. And knowing how he is , this is going to be hard. But let's say he agrees. What about the media? "

"Oh fuck them! If this actually works out , then I don't care about it. Try to talk with him , would you?"

I sigh.

"Fine! I'll try to talk to him. But I'm not going to promise you anything."

He just nodded.

"But.. Jackson....what if he says no?"

"He'll say yes!"
"But what if? "
"No what ifs. He will say yes!"

I didn't want to put up a fight so I just nodded my head.

"Can we leave if you are finished? I want to go home."

He nodded and then we left. He was going to drive me home. The whole drive was filled with silence.

My head was filled with questions. Like will Key agree to this? Am I really going to talk with him about all this? Is this the right thing to do? What if he does something to my family? What will happened?