Married to mafia / Shinee Key ff

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Lili P.O.V

"I'll be out at the door for a few moments. I'll be right back." Key said. He looked pale.

"Oppa?" He looked at me. "Is everything alright? You don't look okay. Was the message?" I asked.

"Don't worry! Hyung make sure that she eats it!" And with that he left the room. I'm not sure that the message he got was nothing to worry about. He didn't look well. What could have happened?

"Come on Lili! Open up ! Say aaahh..." I saw Jonghyun oppa with the spoon on his hand.

"What are you doing? " I said as I let out a breathy laugh.

"Just open up!" He said. I opened my mouth and he fed me. This are the moments that I feel my heart explode.  I see fireworks in the background. It feels like he also has feelings for me.

If you didn't know yet, I like Jonghyun oppa!  Like a lot! For a few years now. I'm good with hiding my feeling. Plus I'm trying to vanish them. I don't want to ruin our friendship.

But at the same time I see this look on his eyes that make me want to scream in frustration. The look show that he only sees me as his sister. A sister that he needs to protect. I hate it so much! Like I can be so happy and for a second I see that look.... everything goes down the hill. I'm just sad and I want to push him away so I won't fall more. But at the same time I want him to be there with me.

IT'S SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!

He was still feeding me. I grabbed the spoon out of his hands and continued to eat it myself. I saw that his smile left his face and it place was taken by a frown.

"What was that for?" He asked.  I decided to play stupid and act as if I didn't know what he was talking about.

"What was what?" I asked as I continued on eating. He raised his eyebrows and had a done face.

"Give me it to me I'll feed you." He said pouting like a little baby that just wasn't his mommy to lift him up.

"No." I said and shifted my eyes from him to the tray on my lap.

"Why not? What did I do? Did I upset you? Did I do something that hurt your feelings?"

I rolled my eyes , I turned to the tray and finished my food as soon as possible . And with in seconds I finished. I put  the tray on my bed side table and got up on my feet. He saw me do so and come rushing on the other side of the bed where I was standing.

"What are you doing? Go back on your bed! You are sick!" He said worryingly. His eyes where focus on me. Those brown orbits, that I've grown to love, where full of worry and concern. I pushed him away and made my way to  the bathroom. I didn't know that he was following me , until he grabbed my hand and made me face him. My hands where on his chest , while his arms where wrapped up around my body. Our faces were too close. So close that I could feel his breath on my lips.

"Tell me what is wrong,  Lili? You know that I love and care you just like I do for my noona?" He said.

That he go! '..like I do  for my noona..' i hate that frase. Everytime he want to make me feel safe and secured he says that. It used to work but right now,  in this position , it's just making me go crazy and I want to punch him for saying so.

"What if I don't want you to love and care for me like you do for your noona?" I don't know what the hell was I thinking when I said that. I see confusion written all over his face.

"What do you mean?"

I just shaked my head.

"Nothing! Never mind it!" I moved my hands from his chest to where his arms where so I could set myself free. I tried moving them but no use. I look back at him.