Recall

Chapter 4: Fall (flashback)

A month went by already and were still talking. I dont know why, but my day wouldnt be complete until i talk to him. He's part of my daily routine already. Its like we gave each other places in our lives. Im falling for him. I can feel it. Or am i? I dont know how to explain what im feling, but all i know is that im happy whenever i talk to him.

"Hey Kim." His voice became serious. We were having fun saying knock knock jokes to each other earlier and sharing corny jokes. Why is he suddenly so serious? This feels weird. Did i say something wrong? What did i do? This is frustrating. Why does he habe to be serious all of a sudden.

"Hmm, yea?" I replied softly.

"Can i say something. But please take this seriously okay. And please please dont inch away when i tell you this, i dont want us being awkward to each other." He said. What? What are you gonna say? That youre gay? Gosh no! Please dont be gay! Not now. But the air around us is getting heavier. This is so hard for me. Whats he gonna say now? I gotta chill! Inhale! Exhale!

" yea sure. What is it?" I asked softly while smilling. I have to show that im not nervous on what happening right now even though i am.

"Kim, i think im falling for you. I know that maybe you dont feel the same way for me, but i just wanna confess what im feeling for you, because everytime i see you smile i fall a bit more and its just giving me a hard time cause the more i keep it a secret from you, the more i fall." He said with sincerity directly looking at my eyes.

I can feel that he was getting shy because of what he said. For a second i thought this was another one of his stupid lame pranks, but then after a few seconds he didnt say that he was just kidding or anything. No it wasnt a prank. This is getting awakward but i dont want it to be. What am i gonna say? What am i suppose to do? I just hate being in this kind of situations.

"To be honest Justine, i dont know if i feel the same way for you, but maybe i do. I dont know. Im confused. Im having fun talking to you, whenever we talk its like im in a different world, every single thing around me disappears. Its like its just you and me on earth. I think i did fell for you, but im scared. Im scared that youre not gonna be there at the end to catch me." I said softly starring down.

Days passed after that conversation. And yes at first it was awkward but it turned out alright. Were more than friends but were not dating. I know its a bit confusing but thats our status. Weve been planning on meeting up on spring break but i dont know if im ready to show myself to him. What if he doesnt like my appearance in real life? All these what ifs are running through my head again. I just hate it when i over think.

Tuesday morning. My phone alarmed, its time for school again. But my best boyfriend ever a.k.a my bed doesnt want me to leave. Its like im the metal and my bed is the magnet. I know everyone felt this way every single day before school. Plus its 4:30 am! How would my brain function early in the morning, but still i have no choice but to go to school. Before taking a shower i texted him a good morning message like what i always do for these past few weeks, its a routine. An hour later, Im ready, uniform on, school bag on. Everything was ready and im off to school.

Went to the usual place where my gang and i usually sit. Laid down my bag at the table and sat next to James and Elynia. James Cho is like my twin brother but no he cant be cause first of all he's gay and he's half korean and im full blooded filipino. Sucks though. He knew every single secret that i have and i know hims. Then there's Elynia Aria Fellix my sister from another mother, not literally okay. Plus we both have completely different nationality she's Swedish and again im Filipino. She's my main girl. Maybe its because we think alike and stuff, we do all the same crazy shit together. Were like the Charley's Angel, the three of us.

Let me introduce the whole gang. Here comes Grape, running towards us with arms wide open, every single day she would give us hugs so tight. Grape Hazel Bean, you would be wondering why would she have the name Grape, and how crazy are her parents to name her that. Well because Grape has this dark violet eyes. It isnt normal yes i know but she was born with it. Plus its cute. She's the happy pill of the group, and she's the eldest but acts like the youngest. Im the youngest but im like the eldest. What crazy world we have.

Now we have Ysvannah Fe, walking towards us, looking like a drunk girl, swaying left and right. How crazy is her name right? Its really hard to pronounce so mostly we just call her with her surname. She's one of the tallest in the group after Grape thats why she's a model. Those long legs she has, everyones jealous of that and ugh her thigh gap. She must be sleepy again, talked to her boyfriend for hours i guess. She was my main in junior year but we fought just months ago because of her having a new group of friends. I know im pretty crazy to be mad because of that, i was just scared to lose a friend like her. But that was in the past, and past is past no need to discuss.

You might be wondering who's Fe's boyfriend. Pheonix Aston, school's basketball team player. One of the hottest guy in campus. Part of the group AJH. That group has most of the hot guys on campus, but not all of them are hot just most of them. One of the jokers in the class. He's fun to be with so yea im happy for Fe to have a guy like him.

Then here comes the cosplayer of the group Miyuki Hayashi with her boyfriend Tet Hitoyishi. Yea you heard me right. She cosplays every single anime you can ever think of. She's basically the same height as Fe but she has these cute anime eyes. Not really the one you see on animes but she just has these cute eyes. In the other hand, Tet Hitoyishi her boyfriend doesnt cosplay but he loves anime too same like Miyuki so basically their match made in heaven.

Then someone sat next to me. I was shocked. It was Kate Garner. The new recruit of the group, she was left by her past group so here she is with the craziest group on campus. She had these wavy hair that i always wanted and most of the time we hang out in the library cause she was a bit of a bookworm but even though she is, she's fun to be with and still does stupid things with us.

Running towards us while shouting was Lizzy Jang, carrying a thick book. Full blooded korean and another bookworm of the group but still does crazy things like fangirling over Suga of BTS. "LOOK! LOOK! LOOK! I FOUND ANOTHER HARUKI MARUKAMI BOOK IN THE BOOKSTORE!" She screamed with her high pitched voice. Typical Lizzy. Then suddenly someone threw her a piece of paper she looked where was it from then saw Riko giggling at the back. Since when did she arrive? Are my friends ninjas too like my parents just comming out from nowhere.

Riko Shigyo. My Piggy Sister cause were both chubby. Basically bestfriends when it comes to food. Another fan of KPOP like Lizzy. Riko and Lizzy have been best friends since sophomore year. I was just a transferee back in junior year with Elynia and Fe. Miyuki was just a transferee this year.

Its the start of the flag ceremony, its basically just the raising of the flag, singing of the national anthem, and praying of the rosary. Oh did i mention our school was a catholic school so we do prayers every single hour. Such religious students or maybe not. But i dont see Persephone. Persephone Barson, you might be guessing if her parents were fans of the greek gods and godesses to name her that. I dont know thats what i think too. She might be late again, shes late almost everyday now. Whats going on with her she doesnt seem like her self for these past few days.

Now you met the whole gang, we all have different personalities and atittude but i love those bitches to death! We do the same bullshit together. Ill never ever replace them for anyone.

Class was on and im getting sleepier and sleepier. History class was so boring maybe because our teacher was old. I dont know, i just find it boring.

"Good afternoon students! This is your principal speaking, we'll be having our classes until 12:00pm tomorrow. Have a good day and Godbless." Our principal announced over the speakers.

Why dont i just invite him over to our house tomorrow? He wants to meet my parents after all. But my idea's making me nervous. What will happen if he meets my parents? Would my father ready his Rifle? I guess not cause my dad doesn't even own any rifles. We got no plans being against the government and the military. This is just so confusing. I do wanna meet him after all. I really do. I wanna look at his eyes in real life and hug him. Feel those warm hands of his. Fine i will. Ill invite him over tomorrow but i hope he approves though.