𝕃𝔸𝕊𝕊𝕀𝕋𝕌𝔻𝔼- C.G

~Chapter 3~

Flash back continued>

"..so you still homesick?" I asked as we walked out of the small shoe store..going to our next destination.

"Don't get me wrong..I love my home in the sweet ole woods..but being in the city especially at night is so pretty.."

"Pft..okay country boy..too bad for me I only get to see the ugly idiotic neighborhood I live in at night..and you get to stay in a penthouse that's on a high floor level that allows you to see how pretty the city is at night."

"..hey..dude c'mon."

I smirk, "Sorry.."

There's a moment of silence as we walk.

"Scale of 1-10 how pretty are the sunsets at your home?"

He looked at the sky..and then at me with a smile.

"100."

"Classic cowboy..classic!" I giggle.

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"Wait what! Right now! I'm doing something right now..and I already went this morning..that's kind of not fair!" Micah spoke into the phone with an angry demeanor..

I'd felt a wave of disappointment..but what can I expect from him..after this is becoming his career. I'm happy for him..but it's sad knowing I'll never be someone's main priority when it comes to love. Again..what did I expect..even if, I would be holding him back, I'm nothing special, but I am something right?

I tried to maintain the last piece of confidence left in my name, I hoped I would get me more but-

I smile."Walk me home?" I say as he hangs up looking very guilty. I could read people I knew for some weird reason.

"..I'm so sorry."

"Don't be..this is huge for you. I'm supporting you every step of the way..now let's get me home and you too that studio ehh?"

He smiles sadly.

"..Hey I'll be fine, and besides you've done so much for me today..it's more than enough." I kiss him on the cheek.

He hugs me. "Why are you so great?.."

"You're the only one that thinks that cowboy..thanks for helping me escape my world." I said sadly but kept continuing so I didn't have to hear him say..that's so not true..many think you're great. That would be a lie..because even my own best friend makes me think differently about myself..or could be because I'm so hung up on him.

A felt a hand grab my arm. I looked up realizing I was at my house that I almost passed because of how caught up in thought I was.

"Ohh, oops..haha."

"Hey, you are wonderful and so fucking talented..good will happen to you...and I just want you to know I love being around you."

A big smile appears on my face.

"Thanks Micah..for everything really.."

"I want to do more.."

I turn around and head towards my porch.

"..and Holden?"

I stop and turn around to face him once again.

"..hmm?"

"I'm not sure how you feel about me..but all I know is that..I appreciate you for not leading me on. It's so obvious you have a thing for Carl..and I'm not mad...you should tell him..but, just know my feelings for you are valid..and if I got the chance, I wouldn't take it for granted. Anyways I need to go. Thanks for sticking with me, bye Primrose."

I tried to say bye back but the words wouldn't come out my mouth. Here I thought no one would ever want me in that way..but not only a great guy..but one who respects me does. I've tried for a very long time to let Carl go because no matter what I did..he didn't see that I loved him...

Micah gave me a small smile before getting into his ride. A smile enough to make to me melt, and for the first time..I felt wanted, I felt like there was something more than the love I could share with Carl. But, I would only be lying to myself. Yeah I had feeling for Micah, but I couldn't use him to take my mind off Carl. He doesn't deserve that when all he has done is be great to me.

I sat down in shock..on the steps of my porch..tears feeling my eyes. Why had I never felt this before? Why does this feel good, but hurt so much?

I was so caught up in thought I hadn't realized Carl came and sat next to me.

"..you stayed and waited for me the whole time..why?" Tears still escaping my eyes.

He wraps his arms around me..I wouldn't expect that from him.

"You'd really think that lowly of me? Hate to burst your bubble..but I do give a damn, especially if it's about you."

He holds my face gently.

"Stop crying dude."

"It's really hard my guy." I giggle.

He hugs me tightly.

"..I didn't know, I swear. I don't have a very high IQ if you didn't notice."

"Stop..hahaa!"
"Carl.."

"..I'd understand if you'd want Micah..but like I said I had no clue..I don't know what I've felt for you till now, and I think-"

"..I love you."

He stopped and looked at me.

"Well I love you too.."

"..no, like I hard down love you. I am in love with you. It fucking sucks ass too by the way."

He looked forward not saying anything. I expected that.

"..I get it. I wouldn't have anything to say if I was telling myself that either. I get I'm miserable fucking girl but at least you know now."

I felt the tears once again.

"I'll head in now.."

I head for the door but he gets up and grabs me..
His lips were now on mine.

After a long minute he let go. He hugged me once again.

"..shit, I'm pretty sure I love you too."

Talking about someone breaking down. I was holding it in until I got inside the house..but that didn't happen.

He held me though, really tightly.

He did care.