You Can Only Hurt Me Once [NamKook]

Sorry For This

Hey, I'm alive.

I just finished my first semester of college so yay me, but while I was doing school work and work work I've left you guys out to dry with like minimal updates on everything

Usually, back in high school I managed to do extra curriculars and school and still write, but everything's been different lately

I couldn't exactly figure out why, because I had about the same amount of free time and I was making friends at work, so it's not like I'm hiking myself away into studying and working.

I go out and do thing with my friends and family and I've gotten to know a couple of my co-workers, so I'm actually putting myself out there.

And earlier today I figured out why everything's been feeling different.

Around this time of year, I always get more depressed and anxious than usual, so there was that. And I recently started liking someone but being as weird as I am, I know there's no way it'll happen.

I've been doing well in school and getting praised at work. I haven't really done anything worth hating myself over, but yet I do.

I'm starting to realize that I never got over hating myself, I was just able to push it away. I was able to forget about it for a sweet moment, but I still feel that way.

So, what does this have to do with you guys.

Well, I hate writing when I'm upset or anything.

So, sadly, until I can push it away again, I don't think I'll be writing anything. I think my last upload of Destined was a good example of how my shit mood can affect what I write.

I really do appreciate everyone that waits for my updates and sends me nice messages and tells me about their favorite stories. You guys seriously don't know how much you lift my spirits.

And I'm really sorry that I have to continue my hiatus, but I think it's best I get my head straight and my heart emptied before I continue writing.