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          |Chapter Nine:Selena's POV|

"So, you still aren't talking to Justin, Sel?" Demi questioned.

"Demi! I told you it was just a spur of the moment kinda thing. You know hormones or something,I'll throw fit over nothing,at all. Honestly I do regret it only because well he is a nice guy and I don't have a right to tell him anything or force him to do what I say. We're barely even friends." I rambled repeating the same story,after two weeks.

I don't know if she just seriously wanted to get on my nerves,and trying to make me feel guilty or if she seriously just doesn't understand what happened.Nevertheless here I am re-explaining.

"Mhm,speaking of horomones I've been meaning to ask you, how far along are you?" She said as she sipped her tea.

"Not to long,I'd say a bit over a month at the most,I haven't set an appointment with a gynecologist. I guess I could say I'm embarrassed. You know how people basically slut shame girls who get pregnant at a young age and it doesn't help that I'd walk in there alone." I sighed in frustration.Playing with my fingers.

"Alone?! Sel,you aren't alone, you've got Ariana,Taylor..and me. Get that through your thick head. Let's not forget Justin." She spoke enthusiastically as I rolled my eyes at her comment about Justin.

"Demi,stop that! And you know what I mean!"

"Admit that,whatever you two have is love at first sight! Like Romeo and Juliet!"

"Demi? In no way is this like Romeo and Juliet." I laughed at how she alluded to Shakespeare's play.

"How isn't it?" The look of genuine confusion played on her face.

"For starters,we did not get married the day after we met."I chuckled.

"I can fix that!"

"No shut up,you're delusional." I laughed at the ridiculousness that flows out her mouth.

"Anyways,you don't need a man,or a boy,to take care of your baby, what happened to the independent Selena I know?!"

"You're right" I sigh and bite my lip.

"I'll make an appointment as soon as possible. You know how my apartment is ready Saturday, I'll wait until I get settled in. I can get myself through this." I said as I picked up my handbag.

"-And a little help won't hurt,Sel,I'm coming to that appointment.Hell I'll come to all of them if necessary.Necessary? No I'm coming to all of them,like it or not. I can stay over, I can have some of my stuff over there." She said really speaking to herself,though warning me with her index finger. I slightly chuckled.

"Yes m'am." I laughed and playfully saluted her.She walked along my side as I made my way to the front door as Demi followed.

"Seriously, you know I'm here for you." She repeated,I forced a smile.I know I'm pretty much alone in this.

I can't help but see how my future just crumbled in front of me. I'd like to say that a child is a blessing, and they are,its just,my child came at an unfortunate time.I never imagined that'd I'd be in this situation.

I pretty much had my whole life planned out.I imagined myself having this perfect life, graduating with a degree getting proposed to, having kids within wedlock, with the perfect...everything.

Reality struck me hard.Of course it did hit me before I found out I was pregnant, but I feel as if I was hit with it more than once. I'll never learn.

Of course, with my luck, this would happen to me just as I had just picked myself up. How can I not see the world with the eyes of a pessimist. It's hard to see the light when you constantly get kicked to the dirt, to start over.