Real Life.

Real Life Chapter #8

Hello, hi, kon' nichiwa, bonjour!

Welcome back to my cringe book!

So last chapter was pretty nice, my first time writing a kiss scene after Noah's and Jack's.

This chapter is going to be another love breakdown for Alexandra, but before we get to that we are going to have 2000 words exact of Zayn's POV, and I am working on a christmas special at the same time that I am writing this, the christmas special is not going to have anything to do with what the story is in right now, but it is going to have some spoilers of some future chapters.

So, I warned you, for those who don't read the authors note on this chapter's, I am writing a warning on top of the christmas special chapter, which is going to be posted on, December-22-2019.

Okey enough chit-chat lets get on to this chapter :D

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**Zayn's POV**

I woke up a little angry today, if you didn't know I have a small level of bipolar disorder and I can wake up angry and in a little bit be happy or sad.

It's hard to handle having bipolar disorder because if I say something when I am mad, something really bad, when I am happy or neutral I might not remember and feel hurt if that person that I said something too told me something about it without explaining, if you don't understand it's like having more than one person inside you, like having multiple personalities in one body, but I wouldn't say its that because that's another disorder.

Only my really close friends and family know about my bipolar disorder, and most of them when I told them, backed off because the though I was contagious or that I would hurt them in some way.

I was 10 when I told everyone, well almost everyone, about it and I was pretty sad since I was still a 'happy kid' and used to care about everyone's opinion on me.

I remember one time when my 'best friend' called me a homophobic asshole because I didn't kiss him back when we were 15, he used to have a crush on me, and I didn't know, but I'm not gay, so I told him that I didn't like boys and he reacted really badly, he said I was a homophobic asshole who did not know how it was like to struggle to be accepted and that I got life easy.

That same day I cut off our friendship because what he said wasn't right and it hurt like fuck.

After that day I never though I'd find someone that understood me as much as he did, but I think I found a woman version of him just a week ago, and I am not going to let her go I'm not going to mess everything up like I did last time.

**Time skip to afternoon because I want to do a special scene now**

I was in my room thinking about Alex, she's such a nice girl, and so hard to get jeese, I'd love to have more of her but I can barely see her now that she thinks I hate her, she avoided me all day.

I have to talk to her but I don't have her number...

I think If I really want to talk to her I am going to have to go to her house. Getting up from my bed I sprinted down the stairs grabbing my keys on the way.

When I was outside I opened my Obsidian black Metallic Tesla S75D AWD, my baby, I loved this car very much and took good care of it, and you might think,

'His dad probably bought him that car even though he did not deserve it' Well you are very wrong, I got this car myself after a lot of part-time jobs and gigs here and there and when I say a lot, I mean it, my dad only had to give me 10,000 so I could pay to take it home.

I also earned it, I had and have good grades so that means I completely deserved this car.

When I got in I put the pin for Alex's house that I asked Jack for in lunch, since I was kind of thinking of going to her house anyways.