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Getting fed up with him

Y/n's POV

I watched Hermione, Ron and Harry leave from the table quickly and exit the hall as Dean turned my attention back to him.

"Hey, don't worry about them. Their probably just jealous of US" he reassured, emphasizing on the word "US". I gave a small smile and looked back down at my soup bowl, filled with a dark tan broth and small vegetable bits floating on the surface. Dean, who was now munching on some French toast beside me nudged me in the shoulder with his elbow.

"So, what's the plan for today?" He asked while taking another bite out of his meal.

I shrugged, "I'm not sure. To be honest, I didn't really know we were even going to hang out" I said simply. Dean laughed and placed his hand over top of mine which was resting tightly in a fist on the table. "Well I was thinking, we could just walk around, maybe go visit the owlery, I heard you loved animals" he winked.

I could feel the awkwardness start to intensify as he went back to eating and paying no certain attention to what I was doing. Oh how I wish I was with Harry at this moment. He made me feel like I was part of something, like I had a place in Hogwarts.

He made me laugh like there was no tomorrow and turn my cheeks red whenever he would hold my hand. The kisses we shared were my favourite memories of being together, being in his arms, smiling so wide my cheeks became sore, now I had thrown it all away and I wasn't sure how I was going to get it back.

When Dean went in for another piece of toast, I finished my pumpkin juice and stood up, accidentally causing the table to shift.

"Where are you going?" He asked me, crumbs scattered all around his face. I shyly looked down and turned red, trying my best to think of a reasonable excuse, man I need to start thinking my actions through.

"I uh- am going to go change" I blurted, quietly cursing myself for how stupid that sounded. "Change? But you already have" he said, confused. "Yes, I know but I urm, GOT A NEW JUMPER!" I improvised. "And I'd like to wear it, if that's ok with you" I said, doing puppy dog eyes just  for a slightly bigger impact on his decision. "Oh, ok" he shrugged, slightly confused with my outburst but turned back to face his plate.

As I ran out, I noticed two boys sneaking their heads around a statue close to the great hall door. I knew almost immediately that it was Ron and Harry. Luckily they didn't see me but I couldn't help but feel a little anxious for them to notice my stares.

I shrugged off my thoughts and quickly started to walk the opposite direction of them but soon stopped and turned around when I heard two huge thumps happen behind me. Quickly turning around, I say the two boys dash from behind the carved stone and to the unconscious bodies I soon realized to beCrabbe and Goyal's. They smiled at each other and high fives before dragging the two large boys with all their strength out of view.

Usually, if you saw that, you'd run to go get a professor or someone and report them but me being me, I decided to investigate.

As I slowly crept to see them drag the bodies to a broom closet and take their robes, I was tapped on the shoulder by someone behind me. "What do you wan- oh, hi Ginny" I said, quickly changing my tone.

The worried girl gave a small smile before looking down at her shoes. "I've done something" she said simply, shaking slightly as she spoke.

Panicked, I knelt down on my knees, getting a good view of her face. "What have you done?" I asked, worry in my eyes. Ginny stayed quite, avoiding eye contact while continuing to cry.

"What have you done Ginny?" I ask again. Standing there, limp in each arm, she threw herself into me and gave me a hug. "I can't tell you" she whispers, tears continuing to spring from her dark green eyes. "I have to keep it a secret but I'll try to tell you this. When the bathroom floods, he'll be unleashed, help save Hogwarts and figure out the key. If you fail, all will be lost and the once paralyzed will be nothing but frost".

Shocked, I moved away from her and watched as she faced me. "That's all I can say, he'll find out" she cried, running off and turning the closest corner.

"GINNY!" I yelled, chasing after her but tripping and landing hard on the ground. "Oh my goodness Y/n! I'm so sorry. I went looking for you but I guess that didn't take long" dean joked as he helped me up.

"Yeah urm, funny" I said, dusting off my robes.

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"So what do you feel like doing today?" He asked as we walked hand in hand to the common room. "Um, I'm not sure, I actually was planning on doing a holiday assignment professor Magonagal gave me" I said, clearly lying.

"What are you talking about, we never got any holiday homework from her, did we?" He asked, unsure. "Oh yes" I nodded violently. "And she wants it done at 12am on the dot right after break is over" I continued, crossing my fingers behind my back and silently praying. 

"Oh, well I could help you" he suggested, giving my hand a little squeeze. Quickly realizing the state my hand was in, I instantly pulled it away, wiping off any sweat we had created while interlocked.

"No! I mean, no. I'm ok, I can do it by myself thank you" I told him. "Are you sure? Is there something wrong, did I do something?" Dean asked. I shock my head make a fast decision to reach out for his hand. "Don't worry, you did nothing wrong. I just, feel like I should do this one by myself. I want to show people that I'm capable of doing my own work instead of always needed someone there with me. Not that that's a bad thing, just, you know, making sure" I told him, taking his palm into mine and tightly squeezing.

"Well if that's all it is then I guess you can go and do that. I'm not stopping you" he sighed, looking down at our intertwined fingers.

"Just come find me once you're done" he smiled. I nodded while returning the smile and let go of my grip.

"Don't worry I will" I reassured, kissing his cheek.

In that very moment, my heart dropped. What was I doing, kissing another boys cheek. I've been brainwashed by emotions, taken control over of. My mouth quickly left his skin as I touched my lips, feeling guilt fall over my shoulders like a 15 pound dumbbell. What had I done. Those were saved fro Harry and Harry only, I had broken my promise to myself. I had fallen for another boy.

"Wow, um thanks" he blushed, touching the cheek I had kissed. "See you later" he winked and walked off, leaving me standing there frozen in the hallway.

I knew I had to tell someone, talk to someone who could give me advice.

They may not like me very much at this moment but I knew I had to at least try.

Hermione...

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