🌹Tyrontroy
"ty" your voice cracked when you said my name, i couldn't look you in the eye that night as i felt something heavy crashing inside of me
you cupped my cheeks and forced me to look at you "listen to me, hey.. please" i could never look at your face, i could never do it, not now
"i-i didn't mean it.. i-i'm worry if i have to break you like this.." your voice stutters, with a glance i can see your eyes starting to water "i didn't know my feelings will come back after seeing him" fck i don't know how to react or what to say, i could not cry for the pain that i carry right now weighs heavier than the light emotions i carry, i've never felt so numb in my life before
"three and a half years, we spent three and a half years, we've been together through good times and bad times, we've been with each other and i-"
i couldn't help myself, i covered my eyes as i stop the forming tears, it just feels so painful, so cold, so sad "i just love you so much.." i started sobbing, my voice started to stutter as well as my knees shaking in front of you
"t-ty i'm.. i-im really, i'm really sorry.."
"just answer my question" i tried fixing my poise, standing upright while holding un ungrateful sad face, i stare "do you still love him that much?"
you just stare at me while crying, i wanna hear the answer from your voice so bad so my heart can pour all the pain out that it can stop already "y/n.. please i'm begging, answer me"
i still didn't hear an answer "alright.. i-i'll count to three" i gave deep sigh before standing still, eyes watery
"one.."
"two.."
"two.."
"two.." i burst and my tears started flowing down my cheeks "two.. t-two!" i was leaning down, holding your sleeve like i was begging, begging for something i can't even make mine to begin with "why does this feel so fcking p-painful.. why can't i just end the count, why am i still e-expecting.. this hurts.. this hurts so bad"
"tyron-" i cut your words off before you can even say something
"three and a half years and i was made a fool for believing your love was genuine, when your still into him,
- i gave you all the love i should have just invested myself, now nothings left but pain, pain from this kind of love even when i saw it coming"
