Skater boys

Old habits die hard

Regina

Recently the production of Giselle has reach its end and we have successfully raised interest and gained sponsors for Quintons Dance Company. Everyone waits in excitement for Partridge to announce the next big thing, the final production that will end the year. I hope to not get cast in a primary role so that I won't have to dedicate all of my time to practicing. Partridge already has me in the advanced studio where I participate in group training 5 days a week. I spend a lot of time in the studio when I much rather be with my brothers. Usually Trevor and Colton make the effort to wait till I've finished but as summer approaches and the tourist season begins, our family store has gotten rather busy. BST surf & skate need the extra help so the boys go there straight from school. They've been working a lot, helping Raymundo whenever they can. Since my schedule doesn't leave much time for me during the day I can't help as much as I would want. 

These day's I find myself alone more often than usual... and sometimes when I'm alone I do start to feel empty, as though I'm missing a part of myself and I become overwhelmed with self destructive tendencies. I drink, I smoke, I do drugs - This way of living began when my family got torn apart and soon became my coping mechanism. In Seacaster, I find myself happier than I've ever been but I still impulsively sneak out and go to this club by The Docks. It's not a fancy club, it's got exposed concrete walls and wooden floors. The whole bar takes up an entire wall and the ceiling is a mirror. It's grunge and got a regular band that rocks the stage. They are really good and I've become quiet the fan. I come by often enough that the staff and security start to recognise me, They let me drink even though I'm underage and give me the chance to skip the line outside. Going alone might be intimidating for some people  but I find comfort in this environment. I don't know why I still feel the need to come here and do these things but I guess old habits die hard. 

I don't usually get dressed up but for tonight I wear a simple black figure hugging dress and heels. I know I dance everyday but this time I just want to lose myself in this song. On the dance floor I drink till my head spins and move how I please, no one telling me what to do or how to do it. No more being perfect or precise... just freedom. A pair of hands grab my waist and brings me close to them, usually I avoid this kind of attention but as I turn in his arms I pause. I recognise him as the lead singer in the band, "Hey." He smiles down at me and I hesitate to smile back, "I see you here a lot, Do you mind if I buy you a drink?" Well. He's definitely handsome but he's no Kayden I think before scolding myself, I have to get over these silly feelings I have for him. Whenever I see him, he's been nothing but rude and dismissive of me. He clearly feels nothing like I do when we are together and when we first met, in the nurse's office... when he touched me, he was just playing with me like I was his doll and I let him. With a heavy heart I agree to some drinks and we make our way over to the bar. "What took you so long?" I ask as we sit comfortably on the bar stools facing each other. He chuckles, smirking a bit "So you've been waiting for me?" he asks getting closer "No." I say as I take a sip of my drink "It's just that you must of been watching me for a long time... long enough to know I come here a lot." He laughs and I smile at him "Yeah, You're right I noticed you a long time ago." He puts a hand on my waist and I lean into it "so... What took you so long?" I ask again and he shakes his head looking me over "I was just trying to figure you out." I take another sip of my drink, almost finishing it "Well. Have you figured anything out?" "Not a thing." he responds instantly and I laugh, he orders us two more drinks. He's a really sweet and funny guy, we talk for a long time. His name is Louis cline, He's a british foreign exchange student from London. Him and his friends are on student visas and are only in a band for fun. He's a little shocked to find out I'm still in high school but he isn't weird about it. I tell him how good their music is and he humbly takes the compliment. The bartender keeps an eye on me as I drink maybe one too many drinks. Louis stops me from having any more but accepts my advances when I press my body against his and kiss him. I can hear his song play in the back of my mind as he moves his hands over my body. We make out a bit before his band is called onto the stage. "This song is for that pretty little thing by the bar!" He yells into the mike and I laugh, putting a hand against my lips. I'm definitely attracted to him... it's just his touch felt nothing like Kaydens. Again I shake thoughts of him out of my head. Louis deserves my full attention as he starts singing with that sexy accent of his. The crowd goes wild and the energy is electric, I get up and dance on the bar. People cheer me on as I grab a large bottle of whatever and drink out of it. I kick my heels off and begin walking down the bar, swaying my hips to Louis's voice. Louis smiles at me from the stage, he reaches his hand out to me and I am about half way down the bar by the time a security guard lifts me off the table. I'm laughing hysterically as I get thrown over the big guys shoulder, the crowd is going wild. I start feeling dizzy as I get carried out of the club and placed in a black SUV, my eyes begging to close shut. "Take her home." I hear a strong voice say to the driver as I pass out.