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dead roses

i know what you want me to say,
but i wont say it.
i dont want a second chance with you, not one bit.
i know your mad, but so am i.
did you really think i wanted to greet you with a goodbye?
i hurt so easily,
im so damn fragile,
but when it comes to stuff like this,
im quick and agile.
ive been thru this time and time again,
now im telling you i just want to be friends.
why did you tell me to wait for you to come back?
you shouldnt have gotten too attached.
if you wanted this,
you wouldve stayed,
but because of her you have strayed.
cuz now ive learned,
and now ive changed.
i lost myself, i was deranged.
im coming to see the real me,
the real me that you dont get to see.
you said your life turned black...and that you feel dead...
just like the rose you gave me that was beautifully red.
red roses turned to dead roses.
thats how it all went,
thats how it made me feel.
i hope you and i, we can both heal.
and move on from something that was never yours,
so you can stop having an internal war.

let the rose burn and crumble to ashes.

what i write might be typical,
but at least when i spit im not hypocrytical.
our scars are quite different,
but both brings us pain which makes you belligerent.
each cut that i make,
is a breathe away from you that i take.
likewise,
your words hit me hard,
burned me till i scarred.
the more life got more hard,
the more i raised my guard.
i know your hurt,
but what about me?
you know youre not the only one suffering.
i dont want to leave bleeding out to die,
but let me tell you,
now i realize,
i dont really need any guy.
im sick of the games,
im sick of the pain.
we just need to learn how to stay in our lane.
now i take an exit,
i want to be independent.
and youre the defendant.
we know you did wrong but we both need to let go,
theres no point to life if we let ourselves sink that low.
you need more time to grow,
when leaving me that much you know.

the rose has died,
now you can finally lower you pride,
im not gonna be the one by your side.
so this is goodbye,
im happy you tried,
theres no need to cry out your eyes.
dry those tears,
cuz im still here,
although losing me should be your greatest fear.