Daddy

As I'll Ever Be

*me and Colby go town to the living room. everyone is still asleep in the house. i'm glad. i don't want anyone knowing right now. at least until i know.*

*Corey walks in the front door*

Corey: i got you 2. i hope that's enough.
Me: thank you. it will do fine.
Colby: i really appreciate this man.
Corey: anything for you guys.
Me: you didn't tell Devin did you?
Corey: no. i figured you wanted it to be on the DL. i'm just honored to be one of the firsts to know.
Colby: just make sure you don't bring it up yet. if she is..you know..we will tell everyone on our own time.
Me: i just want me and Colby to know before anyone. i was us to share that moment stress free without the pressure to tell anyone.
Corey: i get it. i'll be here when you are ready to tell everyone. i have to go. i have a photo shoot in 30. i love you guys. i hope it all works out the way you want it.
Me & Colby: thank you.

*Corey leaves and i look at Colby. Colby is just looking at the floor. i can tell he's scared. i am too..out of my mind.*

Colby: you ready?
Me: as i'll ever be.

*Colby holds my hand as we go upstairs to him & Sam's bathroom.*

Colby: i want you to be the very first to find out. i'll stay right out here.
Me: okay..

*i walk in and face the door. i slowly close it. i turn to my left and see myself in the mirror. how did i get myself in this mess? i met a boy and slept with him IN THE SAME DAY and now we've been together for almost a year..and now i might be..i can't even say it.*

*i take the test out of the box and read the directions. i pull my pants down and sit. i look at the test for a minute and i told it to my heart. i take a deep breath in & out. i pee on the stick, wipe, pull my pants up, set the first test down, and wash my hands. i set a timer on my phone for 5 minutes. i sit on the floor and leaned against the wall. i couldn't think. i couldn't breath. i couldn't do anything. finally the timer on my phone goes off. i feel my heart sink to my feet. i stand up..and walk to the test. i close my eyes, pick it up, and breath.*

*i open my eyes. i can't believe what i'm reading. how? why? i don't know what to do. i feel so strange. i call Colby in.*

Me: Colby..

*he comes in and sees the expression on my face..he looks worried. he walks over to me and i hand him the test. he took a deep breath and read the test*

Colby: oh..

FOR EVERYONE

hello my loves. i am FINALLY back for real this time. i've missed writing so much. i promise to start doing better to give this book to you guys. i love you all so much. thank you for 17k. this is truly unreal❤️😭