Letters to your heart

Chapter 5: Addresse

REFERENCE For the new character: https://card.weibo.com/article/m/show/id/2309404249755566879951

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-NORTON-

"Norton... I love you..."

I stood there facing the wall. I was too perplexed. I can't find the find the right words to say and for some reason, His voice, that soft voice I wanted to hear all these time made a joyous and painful impact in my heart. I bit my lower lip as my chest tightened.

I'm happy,

I'm scared,

I'm excited,

I'm confused,

"Viktor, I..." I closed my eyes for a moment, Listening to the sound of my heart...beating. What am I going to say? What am I going to do? I'm terrified of the consequences of my actions. My answer will change the course of my relationship with Viktor. Do I want it to change? Am I willing to take this chance? I'm trying my best to compose myself, I have to arrive with a plausible answer in this situation

I'm internally debating, I tried to recollect my thoughts and ease my mind. With one last heave, I slightly turn my head towards Viktor, not enough to face him. I don't want to look directly in his eyes with all these questions running in my mind but I have to tell him how I feel. I replied...

"Viktor, I'm sorry, I can't return your feelings."

Silence...

There was a heavy atmosphere between us, the silence is deafening, Not one of us spoke a word.

Viktor's cries had also stopped. It fills the air with so much tension, It's so nerve-racking, I wanted to see his face but I'm so terrified, I know I'm going to see his pained expression and I don't want that, I don't want to see it at all.

I'm so sorry, Viktor...

I heard a screeching sound on his bed. I slowly turned around to see Viktor. I wait for him as he write his response, he was slowly taking his time in writing, pausing between his scribbles

Thank you for being honest with me, Norton. He showed me his pad without looking at me. I can feel how hurt Viktor is with his answer, he's bottling it in, I am too, but I can't love you back with this state I'm in, with this fear building inside of me whenever I'm with you

I'm afraid, Viktor

Afraid, I might lose you someday

Afraid, I might hurt you even more

Afraid, I might grew out of love again

Afraid, I might not give you the affection you needed

My vision is starting to blur. I can hear my heart shattering in million pieces watching Viktor with that agonizing expression written in his face. That smile I love, All gone because of me. It was so heavy for me to bear, Is there any way I can comfort him? I slowly walked up to him in hopes that if I hold him in my arms one more time, I can bring back that smile I love.

Viktor noticed me inching towards him. He raises his shaking hand to stop me.

Grrrrr...!ARF! ARF! The dog doesn't even want me to get close to his owner.

I need some time alone, Norton. Please...

He showed me his pad and replied looking at me with those painful and pleading eyes.The light in his eyes are nowhere to be found. I've done this to him, there's no turning back, taking back my answer will only hurt him even more.