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Luka
Tuesday 20          7:58

Since she came to school, Marinette seemed happier. Not that I mind! I love her smile and seeing her enjoying herself but... I don't seem to get why. So, I used the best option I had and went to her to personally to ask her the question. Enven though socializing with human beings is not my favorite activity, when it came to the pigtail girl, I always feel more confident.

As he made his way to his crush, the young man saw her boyfriend, Adrien Agreste. He cringed at the view of  the boy. Let's say they had some bad history...

Oh no never mind, Adrien is with her. Just what is this guy's problem? Since he and Mari started dating, he would just give me looks that, frankly, just send chills down my back. It's not like I tried to kiss her or anything in front of him! Well actually, I may have tried once. But that doesn't count! She pushed me away...

Finally, I decided to step out of my comfort zone and get my butt out there to know the reason of everyone's sudden happiness. As I got closer to the blue haired girl and her boyfriend, my heart started racing in my chest and I felt like I was going to get sick. That's what you get for trying to challenge your social anxiety. I've had it for a while now, but I've learnt to live with it. But it's still not easy to feel like you are about to go talk to a hole audience each time you want to say something to anyone, even one person. I guess that's why I isolated myself  and music was kind of my escape. A lot of people say that I talk with my music and sometimes beg me use words, but they don't know that music is the only way I can talk to people and express myself without having a heart attack. It's just some of le multiple things that I hate about myself. Some of those things that make my insecurities bigger and bigger. I know I might seem really happy, but before coming to Paris, I had to go through a depression because of all the bullying I was put through...My mother always taught me that some people in this world will always despise you without any reason and despite that, I had to always be brave and face those people who ruin other's lives just because they are insecure and want to feel more powerful...I...wasn't strong enough and succumbed to all the pression...

Creep

Weirdo

Idiot

Sh*t head

-Blueberry!

I heard Adrien's voice. Sh*t. I'm crying.

-Luka are you okay? Wh-why are you crying?...

Oh no! The last thing I want now is Marinette noticing thatI have a soft side. When I'm around her, I always try to smile, show her that I'm that cheery, happy boy that will always support others while in reality, I'm the one in need of emotional and physical support. But that, I'm sure she will never know.

   With a swift mouvement, I dry my tears with my hand and quickly said:

"Yeah I'm fine it's nothing..."

   I felt Juleka's eyes set on me. We made eye contact and I could read in her intense hazel orbs that she was concerned. Like she was asking me mentally if it was because of my anxiety. But I turned away and looked at Marinette instead. She was still worried so to relax the atmosphere a bit, I asked the question that I was supposed to ask in the begging.

-So...You guys seem happy today. Any...any special occasion?...

   Mariette seemed to loosen up a bit and the gleam in her eyes was back again

-Actually, we...Chloe is gone. And I mean for good.

-Yeah dude! Said Nino, She went to NY with her mom. Good riddance! Only Sabrina liked her anyway...