Fallen Angel

chapter 28

All the love in the world wouldn't stop me loving Hunter he was my heart , my soul all a girl could ever want . Never in my life could I have imagined having a man like him I was a complicated girl with one heck of a family no real place to call home.
No one to love not even a place to be myself, no matter how hard  tried  I just couldn't fit in ,as a child born from too perents who came from different places wasn't easy I didn't know my father and this journey was taking its toll on me for sure the hardest part was "was I going to find my father" ?

Did he even know that he had a daughter all this time?
Did he love me?
Will he accepted me for who I am?
Is he dead?

All these thoughts ran wild in my mind. I had to find my father time was running out I was in this town for 3 months and no one could tell me where my father was or where he went I was lonely and really missed my friend.
We had spoken on the phone for some time but I missed the company of a female friend 😔

Hunter wasn't much company anyway since he was always busy, and he didn't seem to care much it's like he was seeing someone else or something I couldn't put my finger on it but what was I to do I even started sleeping in the spare room to give Hunter space. I had no idea how to act around him anymore it's like we lived in the same house but passed each other by I couldn't take this anymore and I wanted to move out , maybe find a place in town or even live in the car if that's what it took.

Lizzy was staying in a flat in the next town from here i could stay with her till things got better if they ever did.

Talking to Lizzy was like talking to a mind reader she knew what I needed and she knew just want to say, so this was it I was going to tell Hunter I was moving out this crappy shit hole and going to a place where I was loved and would be happy, instead of waiting here for this ass that I loved to make up his mind about our future together so tonight I would tell Hunter how I felt

It was so painful to look into the eyes of the man I loved and tell him that I wasn't enough for him, that I wasn't what he wanted anymore just the thought of this made me cry as tears streaming down my face all I could do was cry some more, my heart was breaking I couldn't face him, I couldn't do it .. so a wrote a letter

        Dear hunter

By the time you read this letter I have left, this house is driving me crazy, I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you please forgive me and don't get angry.

   I don't feel like we on the same page anymore and I don't feel loved by you, your distance is killing me and I can't take it I think some space would do us the world of good, I hope you find what you looking for I won't stop loving you

Good bye and stay safe

Love Jasmine ❤️

As I licked the envelope and placed it on hunters bed I looked around the room one last time as I shut the door, the Butler awaited for my bags.. as I walked out I looked at James the driver and said my good-byes trying not to cry. He opened the limo door for me and I climbed in.

Taking one last look at the place I would never forget..