camping trip (randy short story)

chapter 5

Andy's POV
I woke up to the sound of my alarm. I had changed the tone, but it didn't make it feel any better to get up this early. I had worked early shifts during the summer, but that was far from being the same thing. I pressed snooze and fell back asleep. When it rang again I decided to just surrender. I had to eat something if I wanted to survive the day. Speaking of which, I had unwanted butterflies in my stomach. I knew exactly why they were there, but I choosed to ignore them.

"Goodmorning" everyone in the car said when I entered it. I needed their comfort so I decided to ride with them to school.

"Morning" I answered, because it was everything but a good morning. I looked out of the window and tried to ignore the fact that I was going to see him today. I sounded like a drama queen. I was with him for 5 days and I had been crying over him for weeks. But it wasn't anything I could explain.

When we stepped out of the car, I knew everyone of us were looking for him. It felt like a witchhunt. Every brown haired boy could be him. My heart skipped a number of beats since there were a lot of brunettes.

"You'll do fine Andy" Jack said and threw an arm around my shoulders. We were heading to the assembly hall where the headmaster were going to welcome us back. It was something so familiar about the feeling on the first school day. Everyone was slightly excited but still everyone would prefer sleeping and beeing on summer break.
We sat down in the auditorium and I didn't enjoy seeing all my classmates' faces again. Some of them were nice, or at least okay, but I associated them with school. I sat beside Sonny. My eyes wandered around the room. I saw the new ones, starting their first year. Some of them looking lost and almost scared, while some of them at least tried to look cool and chilled.
They didn't know what to expect and I felt like giving them a speech about how everything sucked here. At least if your name was Andy Fowler.

"Get rid of the negative thoughts" I heard Sonny say to me and I looked at him confused.

"Can you read minds now?" I said half annoyed.

"I can see it on your fa- oh shit there he is" he interrupted himself and I turned around to see where he was looking.
And like Sonny said, there he was. Walking in, hands in his pockets and his hood on. Harvey walking beside him. And oh my, he was so hot. He was more tanned than when I was with him. His hair stuck out from under his hood. Last year, I never noticed him. Well I vagualy knew who he was but I didn't really think about him. And when I had thought about it, I would probably have known if he was gay, before the trip. Our school was big but I knew my gays, trust me. Rye was probably in the closet and had decided when he came home, that he should stay in there. The thoughts made it harder to breath.

When he sat down he turned his head and his eyes met mine. I immediately turned my head away, knowing I shouldn't even observe him. We wouldn't get anywhere by staring.

"He's here" Brook said and pointed not very discreet to where Rye was sitting.

"I know" I said without looking in that direction. I was going to stay strong. He didn't deserve my attention. Even though I wanted to give him all of my attention to make him remember. By now he probably didn't remember how it was. How we were.

"He's looking this way" Brook whispered and I once again, forced myself to hold my gaze away from him. Then our headmaster and some of the teachers walked up and started speaking. I pretented to be very intrested in what they were talking about even though I didn't take in any of their information.

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The day went by and honestly, it didn't happen much. The only fun thing that happened was when Brook burped really loud when we were eating and people turned around to look at our table. Brook just said sorry but the rest of us laughed our asses off. I didn't see Rye much, beacuse the first day of the year, we spent togheter with our own class. We also got to go home early which none of us complained about.

We decided to hang out at my house. On the ride there, we listened to music as always and Brook sang loudest. I hummed along to the music as well.
When we got to my house, I made us tea. We went upstairs and sat down. I put on some music. When I looked around at my friends with ariana grande in the background I began thinking about something.

"I should show Rye I don't need him" I said out loud. I was met by surprised faces. They probably didn't expect that from me.

"Yeah you should" Brook said after a while of silence. "I know you and I know you have an attitude"

"Yes please" Jack added and I smiled. I can't stand going a year and being inseacure, silent and boring. I wanted to be the colorful Andy I was deep inside. I hadn't seen him all summer. And I missed him.

"Can I help you choose an outfit for tomorrow?" Brook asked with puppy eyes. I said yes beacuse he would be grumpy if I didn't. Rye could stay in his dark closet while I was living my own life.

Kind of short, but I hope you liked it anyways :)

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