The Music in Us

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Izuku's POV

After Devil Town, I start to play Crush Culture by Conan Gray. He's really good too!

We're all singing along to the song, and I look up to Shinsou and Denki. They're so cute. Shin put his hand on his boyfriend's thigh, stroking it with his thumb.

I'm kinda jealous. I don't know... literally thirty minutes ago Shoto and I were fûcking in the bathroom, and now he won't even answer my calls...

I don't know what they said to him... but I guess it was bad. I just... I hope this doesn't do anything to the band...

We all sound so good together, and it like we all fit like a glove. But... I'm scared that Shoto and I liking Bakugou will cause a rift. Obviously not all of our friends agree with it, but that's their own problem, and they're going to have to deal with it!

I sigh out, and it catches their attention.

"You ok, Midoriya?" Denki asks.

I sigh again. "Yeah, I'm fine. I just... I'm scared that... Oh, never mind."

The yellow haired male turns around to look at me and groans. "You can't just do that! Now you have to tell me!"

I chuckle a bit and shake my head. "You sure did pick a pushy one, huh?" I say, directed at Shin.

He sighs. "Tell me about it..."

"Hey! You chose to stick around! And you better! I'm pregnant!"

Shin sighs again. "Don't remind me..." He says, obviously joking.

Denki opens his mouth in shock, then he glares at Shin. "Fine." He turns around and pouts, staring out the window.

"Shit... Baby, I was just joking."

Denki huffs. "If you don't want to date me or be apart of our baby's life just say so..."

Ooohhh shiiiit...

"Kami... I didn't mean it like that. I was just joking."

I hear him sniffle. "Well, it wasn't very funny at all..."

He sighs. "I'm sorry, baby. I shouldn't have joked about it. Will you forgive me?"

He turns around a little to look at Shin. Shin is just looking between in boyfriend and the road, looking pretty desperate. I'm just staying quiet, because, well... Denki doesn't seem very emotional often... so an emotional, pregnant, Denki... No thank you.

"I want you to... kiss me."

"Baby... I kinda can't at the moment."

Kaminari huffs. "Fine." He turns back around and pouts.

Shin sighs. "Pulling over!"

He pulls to the side of the road, breaks, and grabs Denki, pulling him in for a kiss.

He seems a little surprised by it at first, but, by the looks of it, he kisses back.

Not gonna lie... I'm really awkward right now. I mean... they're making out right in front of me and show no signs of stopping.

Soon, sadly, Denki starts moaning! Yeah... not fun. So, I do what any rational person would do. I start playing Nicki Minaj's Anaconda...

It got them to stop!

They stare at me, and I chuckle nervously. "Hey... sorry, but I was getting uncomfortable that you guys were probably about to give your child a twin, so..."

"It... it doesn't work like that, Izu," Shin says.

Denki looks at him quizzically. "It doesn't?"

We both stare at him a bit, and I start to try and hide my snickers as Shin just puts his head in his hands.

"Oh god... you're having my child..."

"Yeah I am!"

I laugh. "Ok... let's just go to the aquarium now."

"Yeah... good idea," Shin says.

We start driving again, and so we sing to more songs. This is so much fun. I'm having a great time, but I can't help feeling...

Lonely.

I bite my lip and look out the window, listening to the music instead of singing. It's Ghost of You by Five Seconds of Summer, and I can't help but tear up at the song.

It reminds of years ago when I was in eighth grade. I had a best friend that not a lot of my other friends new about. His name was Peter, and he was from France. He transferred to my middle school, and we became close fast. We always hung after school together because we lived in the same building as each other, so we rode the bus together as well.

We were truly best friends (though I was developing a major crush on him during the first couple months) even if it was only a few months. We knew each other so well, and it was real. The only thing he didn't know about me was my sexuality, which I was second guessing all throughout that year. I told him I thought I was gay one day, and he accepted me, saying he was questioning as well. He was scared to talk about it to anyone, because he was afraid it would get back to his homophobic parents.

I was so overjoyed to learn he still accepted me, and that he might like boys as well that I kissed him. He kissed back of course, and that was my first real kiss.

I had had others, but they weren't the same. They were the ones you did because you were dared to or when you dated someone in first grade and accidentally cut off the top of her pinkie finger just so you could impress a boy you at the time (but didn't realize) you liked, so you kissed her to make her feel better... sorry, Yuki...

Anyways... We dated after that. No one knew, not even my mom. I tell her everything! One night we sent each other videos instead text messages, and he forgot to delete the conversation... His dad went through his phone and found them... I never saw him again. His dad sent him away to some boarding school that weekend, and didn't let him say goodbye to anyone.

I played this song a lot when he left, because I felt like it depicted how I felt well. I don't think I've ever been as sad as I was in that moment, and my dad left us for goodness sake!

I truly believe he was my first true love, but I haven't told anyone this. No one knows about him besides mom, and she only thinks he left because his dad was mad I was gay.

I don't know why I'm thinking about him all of a sudden... I listen to this song a lot, and I usually never get this sad or think about it too hard. What if it's a sign? No... that only happens in books and movies...

I feel a tear drip down my cheek, but I wipe it away just as quickly as it came. No. Gotta stay happy for everyone. Very thing is much better when I am. No time for sadness. I have to keep everyone together no matter how bad j feel.

I'm lucky Denki let as to why I'm sad go so quickly. I've found out that people get sad when I'm sad, and it's not like anyone helps me anyways. It usually just gets worse. I'm always the comforter, never the comforted. Besides, I don't want to bother people as much as I already do...

"We're here!"

I blink fast and look up a little and smile. The aquarium...

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