Gear Hearts ( Gear Hearts Book 1) [COMPLETED]

Chapter 36: Fallen

Kongpob POV

The next day, I found P'Arthit in the canteen but when he saw me. He didn't buy what he needed, he avoided me and stalkec out the canteen, I decided to follow him to his dorm.

"Why wouldn't you let me in? We should be talking." P'Arthit stopped on his tracks.

"Like what?" P'Arthit said. "Like a couple?"

I swallowed. Silence fell and I walked towards him, reaching his face with my hand but he took it away. "Yeah. Is that so wrong?"

He looked down at the floor before returning his gaze to me. They were telling me something. Somehow all I can only name one emotion. Regret.

"Is this because you're my mentor or is it because
you had sex with me to punish me again?" I followed him way up to the rooftop.

He sighed and turned around. "Fuck that. I think it's irrelevant."

"You know, I don't really understand this, between you and me." We were standing next to the railings.

"We can't do this." P'Arthit clarified, his voice flat. "I don't wanna do anything bad to you, Kong. Just stay away. " He bit his lower lip.

"What if I told you that I feel the same way of wanting you, of touching you, and kissing you. Would you still stay?" I asked.

We silently stared at each other for so long. P'Arthit still desired me but something was stopping him to go beyond those boundaries.

"No."

"Is this because you're a guy too?"

"Kongpob, stop..." He begged.

"Tell me the truth, because you're a guy?"

"Yes! Because I'm not gay!" He shouted to my face "This thing between us. It's a mistake."

Arthit loomed in front of me, mad, and making me like I was the worst wizard on earth to him.

"Then you'll never do that to me again. Kissing me when you're not supposed to. Loving me when you're just gonna break my heart." My voice cracked. "We were meant to be attracted to the opposite sex. But this feeling I have...I can't stop it."

Our eyes locked, I can totally see he's resisting it. Hurt bloomed on his face. "Kong-"

"I've fallen in love with you, and it feels so wrong to say it, or even feel it." I interrupted him, my voice holding back for another sob, and I stormed off.

One thought gripped in my head; Falling in love with you...is a mistake.

Arthit POV

I wanted to take all back what I said. However, I can feel my power is getting worse, having a blood of a Shadow Curse. The risks were too high, I pushed him away to protect him. I can feel the weight in my chest as I watched Kong leaves the rooftop.

What is really happening to me? I feel so crazy about this. All I've said back in his room was true.

I've started wanting him when I kissed him in Sarika Island, I was a bit confused about my sexuality too but I was 100% sure that I have feelings for him.

Gender doesn't matter, right? My adoptive father used to tell me and Jay that in the end of the day, love is still love despite who you are.

But with everything that was happening now, I should think hard. I went back to my room, dropped to my bed and I stared at the wall for I didn't even know how long...

One thought stuck in my head; falling in love with you...is beyond my control.