Total drama cody x Noah

Chapter 21

(For once it will be in Cody's pov since I think he deserves more attention. Also don't read if you get triggered by self harming!)
(Cody's pov)
Noah fell asleep whilst I went to the bathroom. Smiling, I pull out the razor blade out of my pocket. I know it seems stupid because Noah nearly died from it and I'm happy with him. The reason I do it is because I know I will always be a disappointment to my parents. As soon as I go home they will disown me for being bi. Also I'm scared that Noah will leave me, I'm sure he won't but I've never been able to trust anyone not even my family. I'm scared for getting so attached to Noah In such a short time. I push the blade against my thighs since Noah could see it if I cut my wrists. Blood drips from my thighs as I smile from ear to ear. Relief washes over me and I put the blade back in my pocket. No matter how perfect my life is I feel happy when I do it. Quickly, I walk back into the bedroom but lucky Noah is asleep. I kiss his beautiful face and whisper goodnight to him. I really shouldn't be wearing jeans right now but I don't want to awake Noah. Tears start rolling down my face from the pain. Once this is all finished me and Noah will be married. But I don't want us to be because he doesn't deserve me. He's smart and caring and I'm just this failure who will never get anywhere in life. I fall asleep crying. At 7am I wake up to Noah getting changed. I notice his scars on his wrists as I start crying again. I'm such a cry baby I don't deserve to live. Noah immediately sees and comes over to cuddle me. He's wearing nothing but boxers. "What's wrong babe? You can tell me anything." I murmur to him that this is the only thing that I can't tell him. He gets up and gets dressed then he quickly pulls me up and puts my shirt and shoes on me. I feel his strong arms pick me up and carry me outside. Shivering, he sees how cold I am and puts his jumper on me. Without saying anything I curl up into a ball in his arms. He takes me to the place where I find him cutting. "I know this sounds weird but please can you pull your trousers down. Don't worry no one will see." He sweetly asks. I can't let him see so I ignore what he says. Tears fill his eyes so I start to do what he says. He cries even more when he sees all my cuts.
(Authors note)
Hope u guys enjoyed that chapter. Sorry it's quite dark. 481 words.✌🏻