Save The Crazy Girl

Research

After Ivory ate her sandwich, I brought her home. Well, I didn't know exactly where her home was so I took her to the bus stop and gave her my pass. She didn't say a word and got on the bus. I watched the bus pull away but as soon as it was gone a sudden anxiety filled me. What was I going to do if Ivory tried again at home? I wouldn't be there to save her again. Would her parents notice? And if they didn't would she die?

That thought made my stomach churn.

In the end I had to face the fact that I'd just have to trust Ivory. I couldn't be with her every second of the day to protect her. I could just do what I was allowed. And for now what I was allowed was to do some research in order to help her. So, I turned to my trusty laptop.

Plopping down onto my messy bed, I flipped open my computer and went to work. Having years of experience it took my less than a few second to type in the well known search engine. But when the frimilar logo popped up, I froze. What was I suppose to type? How to stop a girl from committing suicide? Was there really such sights? Am I really the only one doing this or is there others? And if there was, were they ever successful? And if they weren't....

I shook my head and forced myself to type.

'Ways to solve depression'

Pushing enter, I waited for the page to load. To my surprise many sights popped up. "How to be happy", "Ways to make living joyful", "Steps to smiles". I ended up choosing "List of ways to solve depression". Pretty straight forward.

The page popped up with bright colors and icons. The background was a bright pink with yellow text. Little flowers and hearts danced on the page in a seemingly random way. It looked like a Care Bear had barfed on it. But I guess that's the look your going for when your talking about something as dark as depression.

Resisting my natural urge to click off the page, I started to read down the curly font.

'1. Do something exciting with friends.'

Exciting? There's not really many 'exciting' things to do in Claremont. I mean there's a movie theater and an ice rink but that's about it. Would I even be able to get Ivory to go with me to those kinds of places? Last time I saw her at the ice rink she was ice skating and fell on her face. Probably not a memory I want to bring back.

Okay, 1 is out. Next.

'2. Take a break. Set up a carefree day. Relax for a while and forget about your worries.'

Hm. Relax, I think I could do that. On a Saturday or something when there's no homework I could invite her over and we could watch a movie. It seems fun enough. Although it does kinda seem like a date...I'm sure she won't think of it like that. I've already told her a bunch of times I don't have any ill intention. She should be able to watch a movie with me without it being weird...Right?

Anyway, Next.

'3. Enjoy affection. Get your lover to-'

Nope. Next.

'4. Make a list of all the things you enjoy in life.'

Cliché but okay.

'5. Go somewhere with lots of people. The surroundings will give you a sense of comfort.'

I don't know how true that is but there's a school camp fire for the football team next weekend. Half the school is sure to be there. It's worth a shot.

I read many more ideas after that. Every one seeming more stupid and unrealistic than the last. But it wasn't like I could complain. The internet was all I had. Without it I'd be clueless. I was just about to click on the next link when a knock came from outside my door.