Taking On The World

On Purpose

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This takes place about a month after Maya's Q&A but the flashback takes place right before her Q&A.

On Purpose

Maya raked her fingers through her husband's hair as he laid with his eyes closed and his head resting in her lap as the two relaxed on their couch with the television playing softly in the background.

"Josh?"

"Mmphmm?" he said, keeping his eyes closed but pulling her closer and burying his head further into her stomach.

"How would you feel if we were to have a baby?"

Josh sat up quickly and turn his body to face his wife, making sure she knew he had her full attention. "Are you pregnant?"

Maya's eyes went wide, stun. "What? No," she answered, shaking her head. "I'm not pregnant."

Josh let out a breath of relief but could quickly see his wife was hoping this discussion was going to go another way then he wanted it to, "But you want to be."

Maya remained quiet as his words really sunk in. Did she really want to be pregnant? "I don't know," she shrugged. "Part of me thinks about it," she admitted, softly. "I guess being around Riley and her kids gives me all of these thoughts about us and a baby and what if we had one."

Josh nodded, "It's okay you got baby fever," he stated, shrugging, understanding how she could get baby fever being around Penny and Aussie. He pulled her close to him as she adjusted her body to wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms loosely around his shoulders. "I have no doubt in my mind if we had to and I mean if we had to we could handle having a baby but having a baby right now would change everything," he began, softly, running his thumb across her cheek as he stared intensely into her eyes. "Things we aren't ready to change and don't have to change because we don't have a baby. I love it's still just the two of us," he stressed the last three words. "And the two of us can do whatever we want when we want and not have to worry about a baby and maybe it's me being selfish but I love I don't have to share you because it's just the two of us," he told her getting a small smile out of her. "I'm not ready right now to share you or have the responsibility of taking care of a baby and everything that comes a long with it. We would have to move and we just signed our apartment renewal and I still have one semester of school left and I would like to really get my foot out there in the work world before even thinking about bringing a baby in the world and think about it if we were to have a baby this would change your YouTube channel. Yes, people like those pregnancies video things but would your main core subscribers? And what about once the baby comes? And that brings up a whole new thing," he continued to list as Maya continued to digest all of his words. "The baby, I don't know how comfortable I am with you showing our baby constantly off on your channel or your Instagram. We have to think about our baby's safety once it comes because you are in the public eye. People recognize you and stop you and come up to you and I'm not saying you have to give up your career or anything when we do decide to have a baby but we will need to have a discussion about how much or how little you show our child."

Maya slowly nodded, pressing her lips together. She knew Josh made excellent points to why they shouldn't have a child any time soon.

"I wanna have a baby with you. I do," he assured her.

"Just not any day soon," she finished causing Josh to nod. "So for now I'll stay on my birth control until we are both ready."

Maya picked the test up, swallowing as the memory of the conversation she had with her husband just a short time ago flash through her head. She took a deep breath before looking down at the result and her heart dropping.