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chapter 27 | Tasty

"For being me...I know I'm a jerk and that—" my sentence ends once her hand covers my mouth, she moves her head back to stare at me into the eyes. "Don't you dare say that Jungkook. You're not a jerk and you better not ever apologize for being you. That 'you' is the one I love, trust, and need. I love you for who you are, no matter your faults, I love you and I won't ever change the way I think about you so don't say that again."

I gaze into her eyes with a lot of emotions going through my head. She truly is the most amazing person I've ever met. "How can you say that y/n? No matter how hard I try I can't change. I always feel jealous when you talk about another guy, I feel insecure and I cannot stop imagining myself without you...I'm always scared to lose you...seriously."

"My baby..." she tightens her hold around my neck but kisses my lips as I felt my eyes getting filled with some tears. "I know you must have heard that thing many times but I'm not like the others. I'm the girl who will not leave you just because of your jealousy and overprotective or possessive side. I admit that I sometimes don't like the way you react or act but I still love you no matter what, cause apart from those little faults, there's the soft, caring, lovely and cute Jungkook who always melts my heart and makes me feel loved and safe..."

I join our lips to kiss her, feeling overwhelmed by her words and the look in her eyes that are causing a lot of sensations through my body. "I want to be better for you...to show you how much I trust you as much as you do it with me..."

"I don't want you to change for me, I just want you to be who you are with me. The only thing you could do is to just control your anger...and I'll help you to do it," she offers me her precious smile that always brightens up my mood. "How...? I can't ever control myself..."

"You should at first stop getting mad at a guy because he lays his eyes on me, not glare at him, kiss my neck or French kiss me in public just to show them I'm yours," she enunciates what will be hard to stick to. How could I manage to succeed?

"But what if I kiss you just because I want to...?" I use a pretext to it, but she shakes her head. "No. I know it's not the reason why you do it and we can't do that in public, that makes people feel uncomfortable."

"And...? If they don't like it they just have to look away...I'm not going to stop showing you my love and affection just because of other people I don't care about..." I already find it hard to follow the rules she's establishing, surely disappointing her. "Jungkook. You know that we can't do it in public. It's fine if you just peck my lips, cheeks, shoulder or whatever you want as long as it's not an intimate spot but French kissing is not alright if we're not alone."

I don't say anything to not contradict her or speak against her words. "And I would like you to not read my texts over my shoulder all the time. As well as not being rude with Yohan or...Jaemin...or another guy that talks to me. You know I belong to you, I love you and I'm yours, so you don't have to worry about anything that you think might happen because that won't happen. Do you really think that I would one day, let another girl have you? Honestly."

"Well...the past relationships I had all ended because of me and how I am. I always get attached to someone way too much, once I love a girl, I cannot love anyone else and I see myself with her for the rest of my life...and with you...I don't know why but I'm even more possessive and jealous than I was before...and I hate myself because I know this might cause me to lose you...and I'm literally terrified this could happen to me again..."

Her arms pull away from me, her hands touching my cheeks to wipe the tears that rolled down without even me knowing. "I won't leave you Jungkook. I won't cheat on you either because that's the most disgusting thing a human can do to someone. If I love you and say it to you, I mean it sincerely."