Libbele's Compilation of Short Stories

Close but not quite

"I'm sure you will be the most beautiful bride."

May halong pambobola na turan saakin ni Jelai, ang make-up artist na nakuha namin para sa nalalapit kong kasal.

Two days from now, I'll be Mrs. Sherry Chiu

I thought this day would never come, but after all the struggles and heartache that I have been through, everything paid off.

I met Jaren when we were in college, the infatuation that we both felt back then blossom into a very romantic feeling.

We have been together for seven years now, until we both decided to get married. He never propose nor ask me if I wanna get married. Same as our feeling, we mutually decided to take our relationship into the next level.

For seven years, our relationship has been very rough. I must say,  I have experienced lots of heartaches which I never imagined would I endure.

We fight, a lot.

We broke up thrice or maybe more than that, I do not even remember.

He cheated, when we were on our fourth year.

I lost my trust in him, but never my faith for him.

My mother always told me that in a relationship the girl should always possess  longer patience and immense understanding. We girls should also be always ready to forgive but should not forget the reasons as to why we are forgiving.

Dahil babae raw ang tunay na nagdadala ng relasyon.

Lahat ng kaibigan ko nasabihan na yata ako na tanga, martir at kung ano-ano pa na mga salita na  pwedeng sabihin saakin. Kahit ata five senses ko ay napuna na rin nila. Bulag daw ako, bingi at manhid. Hindi ko raw maamoy ang lansa ng mga kalokohan ni Jaren at hindi ko raw malasahan ang pait ng lahat ng sakit na pinaranas niya saakin.

Actually, ilang beses din na ako sumuko. Ilang beses kami nag hiwalay which I almost lost count of.

Ngunit sa tuwing nakikiusap siya saakin na balikan siya ay parang yelo na natutunaw ang galit ko sakanya. Nakikipagbalikan ako sakanya at kinakalimutan ko na ang rason kung bakit ako nakipag hiwalay.

Hindi na rin naman naulit pa ang panloloko niya. As far as I know, pero dahil nag karoon ako ng trust issue ay malimit namin pag awayan ito.

Mas naging sobrang selosa at possessive ako to the extent na halos lahat ng ginagawa niya ay dapat alam ko. Paranoid na yata kung hindi lang ako nagkaroon ng self-realization ng minsang tignan ko ang sarili ko sa salamin at nakita ko kung gaano na ka war freak ang itsura ko.

Pero habang tumatagal ang relasyon namin ay parang mas naging kampante na rin ako sakanya. Siguro dahil sa sobrang tagal na namin at sa dami na rin ng pinag daanan namin ay lubos na namin naiintindihan ang isat-isa. We became more mature and responsible in handling our relationship now.

We talk about marriage, kahit noong nag-aaral pa lang kami. We have lots of plans and everything.

When we reach our second anniversary hindi na namin halos napag uusapan until last year. We were attending our friend's wedding until  the topic about marriage suddenly came up.

We are both financially stable, I'm an accountant and he's an engineer. We already bought a house and currently managing a franchise business.

I really believe that we are meant to be, maraming nangyari at may mga pumasok pa sa buhay namin but in the end, we still choose each other.

"Earth to Sherry." 

Napakurap ako ng biglang pumitik ang mga daliri ni Jelai malapit sa mukha ko."S-sorry may naisip lang ako."