Random Thoughts

THOUGHT #6: Everything has changed...

I used to rant about things that bothers me, especially things that hinders me in doing things that I love. I was blessed with a job that lets me earn money so I can buy things that I wanted. A good-paying job that lets me treat my family to dinner and buy gifts for them. I am blessed, aren't I? But as I stayed longer in my job, works piled up and it made me anxious and bitter. Afraid it'll take my personal time and it did. Sadly, there are times that my work took too much of my energy and time, I have to sacrifice my passion.

I stopped writing songs, I stopped writing my novel. There was a time, I grew bitter and wanted to escape to a faraway place. I wanted to just runaway and start a new life. I even wanted to do street busking, but I decided to stay.

Months later, I tried to apply in another job but God forbid and blessed me with a promotion. Then I realized maybe we aren't supposed to rush things over. Maybe we should just let God mold us to better version of ourselves, because most of the time, we are not ready to face these big dreams of ours. God wants to bring us to different places to experience struggles, failures, and disappointments, not to make us feel worthless but to prepare us to big things and bigger blessings. We always have to remember that bigger blessings requires bigger faith.

As of now, I am currently enjoying my job. Things got better, and I am enjoying the company of the people I work with. I am open to bigger opportunities to improve myself. From time to time, I try new hobbies and try my hardest to slowly improve my craft. I'll patiently wait and keep on improving until God's perfect time.

So until then, what if we do things according to God's will. Pray and ask for His guidance. Just a random thought.