Chapter Sixteen
Call Out
Jungkook POV
I sighed, cuddled into my bed under the covers. I was still nervous by far, nervous to things pertaining to this… this lifestyle.
I shivered slightly, a small wave of regret washing over me.
But…
What did I regret?
I blinked, wishing for the unwelcomed feeling to go away.
I remembered small things, small small things from my childhood, those were good, they were okay.
I sat up in the crib I was settled in, yawning.
The house was quiet.
I blinked and looked out the window.
The sun was only just now rising.
I played with KoKo, smiling while I fiddled with his soft and fluffy blue ear. I tiredly rubbed my eyes, fisting them quietly.
Now why was I awake again?
Why wasn't I sleeping?
I pouted when I failed to come up with an answer.
I remained quiet, thinking about the baby monitor not far from me.
I didn't want to wake them up, risk them being upset.
I let out a silent sigh, tears in my eyes.
I wanted morning cuddles!!!
I crossed my arms, still being quiet, tears slowly falling down my face. Worries clouding my mind.
I want cuddles, but…
What if Koo make Eomma an' Apwa angwy becut Koo was being bad boy?
Not wai'n' for cuddles an' being 'nnoyin'?
Those thoughts alone caused me to cry in silence, something I had grown well at in the past, the past ten or something years of my life.
Crying, staring straight ahead, so, so quiet, you wouldn't even know I was doing so… unless you were watching.
This kind of crying never relieved my pain, my loneliness, the sadness.
It only seemed to serve to make more of these emotions swirl, conjure a terrifying wave of mixed tortures because of the lack of true release.
I hugged myself, trying to replicate the warm embrace of Eomma. I ran my fingers through my hair, trying to get that exact same feeling of comfort that I received when Appa carded his long fingers through my hair before ruffling it, normally causing a pout at the loss of touch when he pulled away.
The pout was present now, but not from him pulling away, but because it wasn't him!!!
I looked at the time, the numbers making no sense in my little head, a small whine slipping past my lips.
I froze.
No!!!
They be mad at Koo!!!
Koo was bad boy!!!
N-n-no!!!
I couldn't stop now, I was so scared!!!
I couldn't remember if there was a certain timeframe I wasn't supposed to wake anyone, I didn't know if I was breaking a rule.
Koo no wan' break rule
Koo no wan' be bad boy!!!
Koo sowwy!!!
A sob slipped by, followed by another.
A constant chant, a mantra of " 'M sowwy. Koo sowwy," 's breaking past my chapped lips in broken cries.
I fisted my hands, bringing the fist down onto my thigh.
The pain it brought… distracted me.
I felt… better.
I did it again, calming down a bit more.
Soon I was pounding down onto my thighs, pounding until my tears stopped.
When the episode was done, my thighs were sore, but my mind was calm.
I sighed in relief when I heard no one coming.
I smiled.
Koo took care hisself!!!
I whimpered slightly when I moved my legs, but shrugged, picking up KoKo, cuddling with him, without knowing a hum slipped past my lips, that soon turned into singing.
Ya! Rago haedo dwe
Naekko rago haedo dwe
Uri dul man naneun aechimil piryohae
KoKooooo
Jungoooooo
Ulmaga oneulbuteo nekkohae
.
Ya! Rago haedo dwe
Naekko rago haedo dwe
Uri dul man naneun aechimil piryohae
You an'
Meeeeeeee
Ulmaga oneulbuteo nekkohae
I giggled as I played with KoKo, asking her what she wan'ed do today's!!!
Yesterday we did boy things 'cause KoKo was boy yesserday!!! But now KoKo was girl… KoKo may wan' new thing!!!
KoKo said she wanted to play dress up and I squealed happily, I wanted to dress up as Elsa!!! Oo!!! Maybe KoKo an' I could have a tea party in our ice castle!!!
I giggled while talking to KoKo, not noticing the door open.
Namjoon and Seokjin watched me cuddle and talk to my best friend KoKo, cooing softly at the sight. The way the light from the window shone upon my hair, causing a golden halo like glow around me, my bunny smile on display, laughing quietly before I was suddenly picked up.
I yelped, a pain shooting through my thighs.
"You okay Bun?"
I gasped and threw my arms around Eomma's neck, giggling softly.
"Eomma!!! Eomma!!! Koo pway dwess up with chu?"
Appa laughed while Eomma shot him a glare before turning to me," Sure Bun," His eye brows raised as he got an idea," How about Appa plays too?"
I gasped," APWA BE SAILOR MOON!!! EOMMA BE KWISTOPH,"
Appa gave Eomma a mean look and I gasped," Apwa!!! No give Eomma meany look!!!"
"Yeah Joon, listen to our Bun!!!"
He sighed," I forget who's the child here sometimes,"
I didn't know what that was supposed to mean but I didn't care as I was sat down into my highchair, a bowl of fruit place in front of me. I squealed, eating happily.
I could wait to play dress up with my Eomma and Appa!!!
They be so pwetty!!!
Very pretty indeed.
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