Nothing More

Ten

You got home later that night and went straight to your room, locking the door behind you. you felt empty. all of your tears had left your system, you had nothing left in you.

you laid there and thought about how your life had never been so hard. the past few days have been the craziest days of your life, and you were over it. you wanted all of it to end.

what if he doesn't survive..? what if.. we were meant to be with each other? but now he's gone.. or really close.. fuck what am i supposed to do without him..

you thought more about when you watched the movie, and him staying up all night driving you around just because you couldn't sleep. you didn't deserve him.. he was everything you could ever ask for. you started tearing up, but there was barely anything left. you were dehydrated.

after thinking for another hour, you realized that you weren't confused anymore.. you wanted ethan.. but you didn't know if you'd ever get the chance to be with him now..

you cried yourself to sleep.

the next morning you texted work and asked them if you could take a while off because of what happened, and they said yes, then you texted your brother and told him everything, and that you had to reschedule lunch until things got better.

he came to your house and comforted you every day when you needed it.

you also invited grayson to stay with you while ethan healed because you didn't want him to be alone through this.

over the next few days, you felt drained. you went with grayson and visited ethan every day and spent at least 1 hour with him. no sign of him waking up, but at least his heart was still beating.

you also told bryn about everything and she came over once in a while to check up on you.

about a week later

you go to the hospital for your daily visit with Ethan. when you walk into the room, you sit down next to ethan and talk to him like always. "hey E.. i love you. i hope you'll wake up.. i need you.." you sighed. "and E.. i want you. i was confused before.. but i'm not confused anymore. i want YOU.." you began tearing up. "but now i don't know if i'll ever have you.." tears began to fall. "please wake up E.. i need you.." you laid your head on him and started breaking down.

at this point, you thought you'd never hear his voice again, or see the smile on his face again. you thought you'd never see your best friend again..

grayson walked into the room and saw you crying. A frown made its way across his lips and his eyes filled with worry. "Hey, you okay..?"

you looked over at him with tears in your eyes. "yeah. still a little.. sensitive i guess. i just don't know if i'll ever get to see him again.." grayson looked at the ground and nodded his head.

"how are you doing? you been okay?" You ask, the tears beginning to clear up.

"i've been better lately. thank you for letting me stay with you.. idk what id do if i had to go through this on my own.."

you sigh, looking him in the eyes. "me either.. we just have to stick together through this. we gotta stay strong for him.." grayson nodded sadly in response.

suddenly you saw ethan's finger twitch.
your heart skipped a beat. "oh my god gray, did you see that?!"

"yes ! oh my god.. maybe he is going to wake up. oh god PLEASE wake up."

the doctor had been standing behind us and heard everything we said. "don't get too excited. the finger is only the beginning. he most likely will still be in his coma for another 2-3 weeks, but it is a sign of him getting better."