Outlaws

Chapter 31

Chapter 31

Skye

It's the middle of the night and well I'm still awake. I get up from the bed and walk over to the window. I look out and see Mark. I didn't want him to see me so I just peaked through the blinds. He's playing a video game and it seems like he's having a blast. I smile to myself and shake my head. I walk away from the window and leave the bedroom, going to my small studio. I sit down on my stool and run my fingers on top of the desk that Mark bought up with when we first moved here. I remember everything, the smile he gave me, the way he made me feel when he saw my art work, how good I was at my artwork. I miss those days I guess.

I go up to the canvas and grab a pencil, I then drag it across the blank space and begin to draw whatever my hand feels. I stood there and let my mind wonder, I felt myself go into a whole different world, out of state.

All theses flashbacks started to make its way into my brain and all of it was Mark, just everything so far. I felt my heart quicken and then my hand started to cramp unexpectedly, so I drop the pencil and realize what I was drawing. I looked at it and couldn't get my eyes off of it, I couldn't let go. I then grab the canvas off the stand and throw it into the small closet off to the side. I close the door and press my back up against it, I slide down and bring my knees close to my chest. I didn't know why I drew that, it just sort of happened. My hand sometimes has a mind of its own.

I get up and leave the room, walking back to the window in my bedroom I see Mark still on the computer but this time he's laughing. I think he's talking to someone. I miss his laugh, I miss his touch, I miss his kiss. I look down at the floor and walk back to bed. I lay in it once again and feel the other man in my life move closer next to me. He grabs for my waist and holds me close. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, I just need to sleep.

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*a week later, two days before the wedding*

I haven't talked to Mark for a week I think, I just didn't want to talk to him around Jacob. Jacob would kill me. I feel bad for doing it but when Jacob is around I can't, if I do Jacob will not like it. Anyway, it was two days before the wedding and we still had a few things left before the day.

Jacob and I walked through the park that our wedding was going through and everything was okay. Jacob kept talking to everyone making sure everything was in order, I myself just walked around. I eventually went to the fruit lady and she stood there with a smile.

"Hi again!" She looked at me and smiled.

"Hello sweetie, how's that fiancé of yours?"

"Good."

"How about that other guy?"

"Friends, but good."

"That's good. I hope you're alright."

"I am, thank you."

I say goodbye and walk back to Jacob. But instead I find myself walking by the tree where me and Mark hung out for the first time. I saw us running around, throwing the seeds around. I bit the inside of my cheek and feel the blood come out a little. I ignore it and walk past it but I felt myself walking past it again and again, I'm never getting away from it. I finally stop and just run in the other direction, but I end up bumping into someone, Jacob.

"Skye what's wrong?"

"Nothing, just taking a jog."

"You don't run."

"Yeah I know, it never hurts to try." I say while running in place. This might convince him.

"Weirdo." He says while walking away from me.