Outlaws

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

*A week later*

Skye

It's been a few days since we've been back and we'll nothing much for mark and I. Still at square one you could say. Jacob hasn't really been himself, he's very different. It's like he's hiding something. He doesn't tell me anything anymore but I'm used to it I guess. I sat on our bed and laid the Apple computer in my lap. I searched up YouTube and then Markiplier. Knowing mark he probably posted two more videos today.

I clicked on his most recent video and plugged in my headphones so Jacob wouldn't hear. I play the video and I swear it's the most I have laughed in awhile. But the laughter stopped when I felt my stomach turn in horrible knots. I felt dizzy and so sick to my stomach, and finally it came up. I threw off the laptop off my lap and ran to the bathroom, were i threw up. I held my hair back and continued to throw up.

Once I was done I flushed the toilet and wash my mouth out to get the horrible taste out of my mouth. I spit out the water and wash my face so it could feel refreshed. I haven't been feeling like this at all, why all of a sudden? I thought about it for awhile and it finally hit me. No, no I can't be. And if I am, then who? Shit, I'm screwed, literally.

I go back into my room and hear heavy footsteps come up the stairs. I look towards the door and see Jacob enter.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing just had a stomach ache."

"You sure?"

"Yeah. I'm fine."

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I was by myself and i sat there scared to death. I waited and waited, hopefully it's not what I think it is. My mind was racing and all these thoughts were jumbled in my head. But then he walked into the room, the doctor. He sat down in his chair and looked at me.

"Well we got the results and well you're not pregnant."

"Oh thank you."

"Don't want any kids?"

I didn't know how to answer, truthfully or lie.

"I'm not ready yet, I want to at least get through a few more years of school before I get pregnant."

"Oh okay, but it does seem that you have a server stomach virus. I will prescribe you some medicine and you will feel better in no time."

"Okay, thank you again."

He rips the paper from his writing tab and hands it over to me. He shakes my hand and I thank him for his time before leaving. I rush out and get into my car so I could get out quicker.

As I drive i breath slowly and relax. I thanked God I wasn't pregnant. It's not that I don't want to get pregnant, it's just that if I do I'm afraid that Jacob will do what he did when I was first pregnant. I can't go through that again. I feel myself start to shake and it wouldn't go away so I decide to turn on the radio. The first song that comes on is I'm not the only one by Sam smith. This song was okay for now.

"You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one

You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though Lord knows you kept mine"

I sang along and felt a strange connection to these words that were sung. I knew why, Jacob might be a low person but like I said before he's not that low or is he? My mind got distracted but stood into the song. It flowed with it and played.