Hopeless Honey

Sorry

I cleaned around the house all day, I was back in my little uniform since Mr. and Mrs Callahan we're back.

Two days had passed since Xavier slept in my bed. He hadn't spoken to me since, and I was sure he was avoiding me as pay back. I pretended I didn't even notice.

His bruises were getting better, and the cut on his face probably wouldn't scar. When his sitters asked him what happened he looked at his mom with disgust.

"He got into a fight after one of his games" she interrupted. I stayed as a background character, only watching and observing as everyone passed me by.

My mom was the most upset when she saw him, I think it's because she knew who did it. She didn't see, but she could always tell.

I knew the truth of what had happened to him, I think Ms.Betty wanted her daughters to have a perception of their father that didn't exist. They knew he was a provider and he loved them, but they didn't have any memories or sweet moments with him.

I remember the first time I ever went on an airplane. The Callahans were meant to fly out to Fiji for vacation. They were all going, even Mr. Callahan. Mami and I were supposed to be staying in the house for a week.

The day before the trip Ms.Betty called my mom crying. She said "my husband can't come and I need help with the kids, can you come? You can Bring honey."

My mom had me pack my best summer clothes, which wasn't much, and we went the a shop to buy me a bathing suit. I was so excited, but my mom told me we would be working, not on vacation.

I was only 10 at the time, and when we got there, it was amazing. I helped my mom clean up after everyone and watched the babies, but it was so much fun. I remember the kids kept asking "where daddy was" but Xavier would just shush them.

After it happened a few more times, the girls stopped asking, and we all got used to not having him around. It was good for me because that meant me and my mom got to go on more vacations.

When I got ready for school the next day, I had to wake up half an hour earlier because I couldn't take the truck. Mami said she needed it today.

I walked 15 minutes out of this neighborhood just to reach the bus stop. I was dreading school because it was really awkward between Mateo and I. He stood at my locker trying to talk to me between every period.

I would ignore him best I could but he would say things like "you're so beautiful, I only want you", "I'm sorry baby, I miss you", and "please forgive me, Honey" it was hard for me to hear those things and not feel bad.

But I remembered he was the one who hurt me and didn't deserve my forgiveness. Watching him now, all desperate and sad, I wasn't even attracted to him anymore.

The day continued on the same, and I was excited for last Period, because mamá was going to pick me up after school since she wasn't at the Callahans today. I grabbed my stuff from my locker and threw it in my school bag. I walked to the front eagerly. I felt my phone buzz and I checked it quickly.

"Something came up, Mija. Xavier is gonna pick you up, sorry!" the text was from my mom. I was disappointed, but a bit excited to see Xavier. I wonder if he was planning on speaking to me or not.

I waited outside for a few minutes, searching for a familiar Jeep. I heard someone call my name, but it wasn't Xavier. Although this time I really wish it had been.