Denying the Feeling

The Test

Emma froze, she was stiff  as ice. 'I was going to tell him just wanted to see the results first.' "Kill-Hook... please." 'What is he thinking? I was not ever going to tell him or let him know?' Emma was slightly stressed about the situation.

"Were you planning on telling me...."

"I just- I-"

"Were you planning on telling me I might be having a child Swan?!" Killian was bloody pissed  at the fact that she was not being clear. 'How selfish of her to keep this theory or thought from me... wait- A baby? A bloody damn baby? What do I do with that?'

"I just want - wanted to see the results first and-" 'Was he yelling at me? Really Killian? Yelling?' She got mad 'Does he think I can't handle someone as selfish as him, child?!' She crossed her arms looking at him "Of course I was going to tell you!"

"How could you let this happen?!" He hated the thought of a child. Truly he loved Emma and wanted a family with her but was rushed over with sickness and anger at the moment.

'I can't have a child, all hell knows I'd be a terrible father.' Killian didn't believe that was his place in life at the moment.

"Me?! Me. Of course you can only think about your self in this moment in time! You fucking asshole! Just- just- leave Killian, I don't want to see you again." Emma was irritated 'He was mad at me for possible becoming pregnant. When It is partially his fault! How can I even control this?' She could get over the fact that he could be blaming her after everything.

"I didn't even want you anyways! You're just like all the other bloody woman out there Swan. I thought you would be smarter then to get involved with a pirate!"

Emma couldn't believe someone could be so heartless.  After everything she has been threw, everyone she has lost now this. Her heart had broke with every syllable that left his mouth. "Leave!" She yelled taking the box out his hand her eyes tearing up as she got in her little yellow bug and soon drove off.

Hook stepped back reliving what he had done. What had gotten into him? Those words meant nothing to him, he didn't mean any of it. He loved her more then anything and now was... just gone..

He watched her drive away "I'm sorry.. Emma." He whispered  in fear that he'd  never have the chance to say it to her in person.

Killian then made his way back down to the docks mad and angry at what he had just done. When he got into his cabin he opened his rum flask  chugging it down, then smashing it to the ground. He then layer down only thinking about her and how she must be feeling right now. 'Was it that bad? A baby.... Now I have nothing. Why not for once in your life allow yourself to be happy?' He loved her, and as he continued to rethink a baby with her... Killian loved the thought of of a family with her. He just lived in fear that he would turn out like his father, rough and aggressive.

'Leave...' Her words whispered in his mind. He soon found himself on top deck sailing away from the small town 'She wants this right?'

Emma cried the whole way home 'I knew it! Emma you knew it was too good to be true.' She was heart broken. She couldn't get over the way he treated her. Then she remembered she could be pregnant with that man's child. This shook her mind making her more scared than anything, but she had her mind set that she would never let that man ever near her child in fear the little one would get attached just to be heart broken like her.

~~~~Later That Night~~~~

Emma dropped the test seeing the 2 pink lines that showed. She found herself against the wall, knees up crying. She didn't care now...' no matter how mad he made me... he deserved to know.' At least that was the excuse she told herself not admitting she wanted to see him even if he just yelled at her.

She got in her bug wiping her tears as she drove to the docks. She didn't see his ship so she got out of the car and looked for it seeing it travel away In the distance "Killian... I'm sorry!" She teared up putting her hand over her stomach which soon would be a bump when she realized 'He's gone...'