Denying the Feeling

The Morning After

As soon as Emma had gotten home, she had no idea what she was thinking last night. ‘Your such a slut!’ She sat on the couch and ran her fingers threw her hair. She had sat there for a little while and thought about her actions ‘I mean it was good… but what if now he thinks that was all I wanted from him? It was our first date and we have already ...’ She sighed and grabbed her phone.

 

She had to talk to someone about this and what had happened ‘Help me get in my right mind.’

“Mary Margaret.” She said in a low tone as Snow answered the phone.

 

“Emma? Hi. How are you?”  Snow had heard the tone in her daughter's voice and knew something was wrong “Are you ok honey?”

 

“Something happened… Is dad around?”

 

“No. Why? What is it?” Snow began to worry.

 

“Uh- I spent the night with Hook last night…” She needed advice. She was brain dry on what had gotten into her sense she had been around him just a day. Emma had wanted to regret what happened between her and KIllian, but yet at the same time… ‘He loved me so strong so willingly and just-’ She couldn't fine one reason in her mind to have a reason to regret it.

 

“What?! … I sorry…  Emma, honey what happened?” She had all ready knew what had happened from her tone once again. She was shocked over all. Emma didn't seem to be the one night stand type.

 

“W-w-we had sex… on our first date… after not seeing each other for 2 months… is that bad? I feel like a whore.”

 

Snow again was not surprised. It had been bound to happen sooner or later “Emma… Your not a whore. It was only a one time thing right? Besides were you two drunk? Or did he just use you?”

 

‘It was out of love...’ To Emma it felt like love. Honestly she did love him. Hook had always been there for her, she trusted him like no other as well. She had been threw so much with this pirate could you blame her? ‘He is a pirate though… He loves all woman...’ She sighed at the thought of not being anything special to him ‘One time thing…’ She was not sure is she loved or hated the idea. She felt so terrible as if she \has done wrong now ‘but last night… He was so perfect!’ She would do it again for anything. She had never felt so loved.

 

Snow realized Emma didn't know what to say when she didn't say anything for about a minute “You know Emma? I see the way he looks at you?”

 

Emma was questioning where her mom was taking this.

 

“It’s the same way your father looks at me. Hook looks at you as if you are his treasure Emma. His look is with love, but not just any love  a very high, powerful, strong, look of love and want for you. True Love.” Snow let out a chuckle “I sound like Henry, but Emma after all he has done to try to ‘win you over’ as he’d say, why turn around and use you, hurt you like that?”

 

Emma felt her self tear up a little realising that all her mother had said was true. Hook did look at her differently, and why would he hurt her? ‘Ruin all the trust he has gained from me?’ “Are you positive?”

 

“Emma I am 101 percent.” Snow smiled “So… This morning what happens when you saw him? How was that convo?”

 

Emma paused again “I just-just left?”

 

Snow was shocked “You just woke up and left?”

 

“Was I not so post to? Is that bad sign?” Emma now was stressed out about it “I know it is slightly rude, but  I was just trying to avoid conversation.”

 

“No it is fine just… now it may seem as if you used him.”

 

‘Why didnt I? It is not to bad to talk about...’ She was scared over all, more than any of her other excuses. She just didn't want to admit it to her self. Last night was full of love and passion, but  in the morning she wish she could have regretted what happened last night. She could not have stayed and talked to him with that thought running through her mind “I was scared… What was I going to say?” ‘Wait wha?! Use him? Never!’

 

“Emma he will love you no matter what. Just talk to the man and don't leave him questioning.”

 

“I’m a go talk to him. Thanks.” The two then hanged up. Emma then got up to get her keys but found herself instead sitting on the couch still nervous.

Hook soon got up about 2 hours after Emma had left. He yawned and went to turn over to her then realized she was gone. He then looked to the floor to see her clothes were gone as well ‘Was I dreaming? Did she just use me? Does she think I was using her?’ He sighed and got up and began to get dressed ‘She does know I truly love her right? That I wouldn't do something like that?’ He then had went over to his desk and pulled out his flask and began to drink. He was depressed now… honest to heart. He was sad not to see her next to him. Not to be his anymore… ‘She’ll call eventually… Right? Or does she just not care and know?’ He didn't care he loved her, no matter what she thought or said. He would NEVER use her as a toy. All he wanted was for her to know that he truly loved and cared about her. More than anything in the world. She was his everything. He didn't care if he stayed with her, he just wanted her to know how her felt deep down.