My Shadow

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It's my 21st bday so here's my treat from me to you.
Surprise!!!! ( ◠‿◠ )

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Larry POV:

Laurent kissed my forehead gently before standing and walking past that random man that keeps popping up. The man bowed gracefully taking a few respectful steps back. Laurent grabbed his shoulder forcing him to stand straight before whispering something into his ear.

It was too low to hear for me but the way the color drained from that man's face as he glanced over at told him all I needed to know about what Laurent said. Feeling uncomfortable being the silent subject, I readied myself for school. I tried my hardest to be quick but the pain in my backside was begging for me to just become a statue and never move again.

"Hurry up. I don't wanna be here all day," the man said, his tone was something that already made me uncomfortable so I nodded and scrambled next to him with my head low. Never leave the door open for trouble, leave a clear path and let it pass by.

Walking to school was an absolute delight. Not only did I get stared at but the man seemed to be quite fond of muttering just loud enough that I could hear.

'He acts like I stole his man,'

"Masters not my man!"

"T-then w-why are you so angry with me?" I asked glancing up quickly.

The man froze, his eyes refusing to look at me, he let out a deep breath before muttering, "Because you're a scrawny little human,"

I sized him up and down with a raised eyebrow, taking in his equally petite form. He wasn't small but I can see that he wasn't large enough to call someone else scrawny either. My eyes met the man's light amber ones. I couldn't look away instead my eyes roamed his features.

It was like he was seeing him for the first time. With a face that was soft but defined, deep-set eyes that were clear and looked pure. The man was handsome but in a scholarly way. One could not give him a nationality but his skin was fair and seemed soft to the touch. Defined and clean-cut, the man gave off a warm but dangerous feel. Different from Laurent who was cold and seductive. I admit I was dazed until the man gave him a smug smirk.

"What I'm too handsome for you,"

Seeing his smug face made me scoff at his arrogance, "Laurent's more handsome,"

The man's eye's hardened, "How can you call his name so freely, mind your words."

"That's the man he gave me to call him. Would you rather I call him his given name or the name that is written in the books." I snapped back, feeling strangely irritated at the man's nagging.

"YOU DARE!" The man shouted his breathing hard and his face red with anger.

I tried hard to remain composed, making myself smile softly, "Why are you so angry with me? What have I done to you?"

The man snarled, his lips curled back to show his sharp canines making my face drain of color, "Just because you're pampered by Master doesn't mean that I won't make things hard for you. You don't deserve his kindness or attention. Do you know how many men and women fiend for him? Daughters of officials and literal Gods and Goddesses throw themselves at him. And yet..."

Larry started to tremble as he was inspected,

"YOU? Tah! Unworthy. Undeserving. Undesirable." The man walked slowly until he was in his face, "I should do everyone a favor by making you disappear."

My brain came to a stop after hearing his words. I didn't want to believe it but he was right. Laurent was a supernatural being, a man whos has seen dozens of sunrises and sunsets.  Laurent was strong, overpowering and with a face that was deserving of a God. He was gentle to me but maybe the man was right. I should just go away.

My hands shook as I touched my chest, struggling to breathe. I couldn't see anymore.

Unworthy. Undeserving. Undesirable.

Unworthy. Undeserving. Undesirable. 

God, I wish it would shut up!!!! I hate it. Everything was a lie. An illusion, I was a toy. A broken toy, a broken and USED toy. My eyes burned as hot tears stained my face. I was in pain. I could hear something but it sounded as if I was in a pool.

I was suffocating. I think that noise may have been me screaming. No.... no, it can't be.

Unworthy. Undeserving. Undesirable. 

Not realizing I was in a ball on the concrete, I stood up on my jelly legs and ran. I ran as hard as I could. My tears blurred my location as I pushed my way past people and students. His words echoed in my head as I ran like my life depended on it, not stopping until I reached s bridge that I recognized. I've come far. Sucking in some much-needed oxygen, I stared hard at the river flowing under. The sun seemed to kiss the edge of the water, casting a beautiful golden glow on the horizon. I was tired. I knew that my feelings were true. Life was too good now, I was borrowing happiness. I was stealing air. I was a placeholder human, standing on this Earth when I should be giving up my worthless life for someone who could be better.

"Unworthy. Undeserving. Undesirable." I whisper. Unconsciously making a fist before I stepped forward and grip the cold steel railing, feeling my lip curl up at the small comfort. The voice stopped.

I inhaled deeply and tossed a leg over the railing. Falling, I could feel the breeze as it hit stronger. I knew then that what I was looking for was here. The water was calm, and inviting blue was seamlessly beautiful. Like a watercolor painting.... who knew that water could feel, and look so beautiful? The bubbles even looked magical as I watched them float up taking my oxygen with them. I could finally rest... it was perfect as I closed my eyes. Darkness was always my friend.

It's over... I'm free.

At least I thought I was.......