Ryes POV
I pulled away from Andy he looked at me with foggy eyes. He blinked a couple time then rubbed his face with his hands.
We sat in silence for awhile not saying a word. Before Andy finally said
" why did you do that" I looked into his eyes. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I knew I was probably starting to have a panic attack but I also knew if I didn't say this now I was gonna loose him.
" I can't say it" I said he gave me a confused look
" if I say what I want to say everything in my life will change. Even if it's just to you. I can't.... My whole world, my family my friends, everything will change if I say the words that I said to you that night" I said shaking. The look on his face had a look I couldn't read.
" I'm so sorry... I wish I could make this easier. I'm so sorry I hurt you. I'm so sorry I can't say it. God I wish I could. I wish that my life was different I wish I could just be happy with you but I can't... I can't I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm so sorry I'm-
I got cut off by Andy hugging me we both sunk to the ground as I cried.
Andy stood in my room putting a pair of my pajamas on the bed. He looked at me and smiled. After the incident in the bathroom I couldn't breathe and I couldn't catch my breath so Andy grabbed me and put me in the car then we came home. When we got home he put me in the shower. Said it would help me calm down.
" what did you tell the boys" I said quietly
" I told them you weren't feeling well. Put on some pjs and get out of the wet towel." He said I nodded I went to grab the clothes and my hand shook like crazy. Andy put a hand on my hand.
" here sit on the bed I'll help you" he said I nodded
He put my shirt fast and put my pants on over my towel bottom.
" so now just stand up and put the pants over your... you know and then pull the towel out" he said blushing I smiled
" you're so cute" I said he smiled
" get some sleep Ryan" he said I closed my eyes
" say it again" I said
" get some sleep?" Andy asked I opened my eyes just so I could roll them at him
" say my name"
" Ryan" he said I bit my lip
" I hate it when people call me that it reminds me of my parents calling me it... but when you say it I feel alive." I said he smiled looking down
" can you lay with me" I said he looked up at me and nodded
We both got in bed. I wrapped my arms around him fell asleep.
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FanfictionRye and Andy have always been super close but they went any further because Ryan was a hundred percent straight That's was until they have a new band member sonny who starts spending all his time with Andy Which makes Rye feel left out and misses...
