Dear You

Chapter 17 - Trust

Chris began to pace him self up and down the room, putting his hand through his perfect thick hair frantically drinking me all in as I waited impatiently for his explanation.

"You need to understand Sarah that not everything is as it seems" he spoke

"Riddles are not my best forte Barker, I hate games"

"You think this is a game, it's far from a fucking game"

Silence. I heard nothing but felt all. The tension was thick. I was dying to push him but I won't be demanding. This is his pitch. His time. I have never seen him like this..he was pouting hard and his hands was now in a firm grip.

" The floor is yours Barker" I smirked trying to lighten the mood.

"I cannot tell you everything. I gave them my word and I don't break my word . But I need complete trust Sarah. I need your trust and I need you to trust me. Do you trust me?"

I closed my eyes as I reminisced my past, all the times I have been hurt with lies, empty promises and heartache. Trust is not something i can give easy. I have always found it hard and my walls are now higher than ever. I opened my eyes and I looked over to Barker who was now pressed against the wall. Our eyes met and his were pleading me to trust him and in less than a second my doubt melted. I didn't need any convincing..over the last few months the trust has grown. We are partners. Yes he aggravates me to the very core but I know I am safe with him and I know everything I say will only stay with him. What ever this is between us is scaring me. It might be nothing but it could be everything. Right now I am afraid to follow this completely. I am still vulnerable and raw but I cannot ignored my body responding to his and the burning inside of me wanting him.

I slowly walked towards him and moved away his glass and placed my finger on his chin.

" You can trust me" right then as my words escaped from my lips his shoulders dropped as he sigh in relief... do I matter to him?

" The lady you saw is my wife. BUT, she is not my wife romantically. She is a business deal."

"A business deal?"
"Yes. Someone dear to me got caught up in some stuff . This stuff was dark. Very dark"

Oh my god where is this going?..

" You see, the person who got caught i loved, they were like family but the person that could of been hurt the most I loved the most and I would do anything to protect them and me being married to this vile woman was part of the deal.

"Arranged marriage?" I whispered

" Yes and her father is part of the business world and he is one greedy fucker. He of course wanted me for his desires to be bigger, one of the best and the ONLY way for his success was to marry in to well breed family with old and new money. So I agreed to marriage.. it was the onlyway"

I was shocked.

"Is there a way to get out of it?"

"Get out ? If only it was that easy.
They want money and power. I can give them that and they want help with closing there biggest buisness deal which is complicated but can be done with my contacts and they want one more thing to close this deal.

My heart was racing. Trying to take in every bit of information. I wanted to run and tell him to leave but I am into deep now.

"What? "

" They want an heir with my bloodline. They want me to father a child"