Always Hated(yesung)

chapter 20

SHINDONG POV

(1 week later)

We were in the big van doing our makeup. I looked out the window and saw the fans all sit  on the grass facing the stage. They must be wondering why the stage has full of yesung's picture.

All of us had finished our makeup except for yesung. The make up artist has to put alot of blush as to hide the slight paleness. He had lipstick the same colour as his normal lips. As i stared at yesung,the door of the van opened.

The staff guided us onto the stage with fans cheering. If they know the truth,they sure will not be cheering. Leeteuk started" This is just a miny fanmeet.

This will last about 30 minutes or more. You guys should be wondering why aren't we happy like we normally do and why is there only yesung pictures on stage. Thank you for this sudden silence because this should be the correct atmosphere that  should have.

Please prepare for what we are going to say in a while. As you know,yesung he was just recently started to recieve alot of love from fans. He cherishes you guys alot. However,yesung will leave soon. I think i should let yesung say it himself.

He is the one who should reveal it."

YESUNG POV

I put the mic close to my mouth but couldnt say anything. Tears gathered in my eyes as a drop of tear flowed down my face. I couldnt hold it. I squat down and started crying.

I could hear other fans cry through my crying. I calmed myself and stood up straifht. I took a deep breathe before i said" I love you,elf. I really love you. As you know,i just came out from the hospital.

I am not leaving the group but leaving something else. I love all my members,family and friends and you guys. Saranghaeyo! Anyday can be my last now.

I am leaving the whole world. Next time,if you have to see me. You have to go online or go to the graveside. Please prepare yourself. The doctor diagnosed me with laryngeal cancer and heart disease. This disease is not contagous.

I only have lesser than 2 months to live. I am sorry." I bowed down in tears. I turned to the fans to see them crying along. One fan shouted" Oppa! You wont die! You will live!"
I wanted to believe her. However,the doctor themselves has already confirmed.

I looked around again and saw even more fans crying their eyes out. I quickly said" I need to go to the van." I ran into the van and closed the door. I looked out through the darkened window.

Fans were standing towards my side. Jsut then,i heard leeteuk say throught the mic" It will end now. We are heading back to the hospital." They entered the van and smiled at me.

Leeteuk passed me a tissue which i used to wipe my tear strikened face.we drove to the hospital immediately after that.

The entrance of the hospital was crowded. Fortunately,we managed to go through. I know that after this,the real challenge begins. I have to fight.

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