Songs Of Love

Insane

Insane I've gone,
    When I got withdrawn,
        When you left me in a middle,
            I remember that day you            couldn't help but only fiddle.

Insane I've been,
  When I saw you everyday,
     I've been keen,
           To love you and have you.

Insane asylum my life has become,
             I live in a slump,
                I've known what happiness is,
                       Now, I don't know what to name this, grump.

Insane I've got,
             To the beautiful vague, empty draught, you've left in me,
                  I've never known this sadness.

Insanely good you were looking,
                On the day of our nuking,
                      On our rides of loving,
                             Then, we stood, in our shells, departing.

Mad at you with your family,
         Mad at you and your love,
                  Sad at the reality,
                          Sad that this truth hurts.

I cry out in the lonely nights,
I wail you in mornings,
I moan your memories in the afternoon,
While I punish myself in the dark evenings.

Hate myself and hate you,
For what you've done to me,
Invited me to the party of love,
Then left me, in a dark graveyard of memories.

Pills I take and I take drugs,
I remember every fight of us,
The pain and agony of life gave me a hug,
Now, I am not sure if I am stuck.

© Ashraf Shaikh