Don't leave me

Part 10

-No ones POV-

Life? What was that? The world was harsh to the boys. All seven of them.  Yet they didn't stop bwing friends. Everyone was broken in some sort of way. Thats just how things work. Kim Taehyung lost hos bestfriend and girl he was actually starting to like day by day. No one spoke about her while Jimin was suffering at the blame of her death. Their fangirls and boys let them have the space they needed to grieve yet it still seemed to burn in the back of their minds like a poison that slowly kills you, not a fast death and theres no cure for it. You have to wait until you die.

-Taehyungs POV-

I sat on the roof. Looking at the sky while thinking of the promise Liz and I had made right here the day she broke up with me. "Taehyung. I see the way you look at Jungkook and honestly I do get jealous because I like you. I dont think I'm ready for this yet though so promise me that we'll always be friends. Promise." That was what she said. She made me promise yet she broke her promise first.  I lost someone so close to me and it burned. It felt like a fire was eating me alive and keeping me going at the same time. I leaned back a bit on where I sat to see the clouds properly and yet the tears made me close my eyes.

Jungkook- "I figured you'd be up here feeling sorry for yourself. You swore you wouldn't. You know Lizzie wouldn't let you cry."

I looked at Jungkook. The boy I was so in love with who had no clue. What was I going to do now? Damn. I hated when I did that. I thought about him when something bad happened and it made it better.

Taehyung- "I can't help it. You saw her family at the funeral. You saw what happened to Jimin that day. He hasn't been the same. No one has been. I just-"

Jungkook- "I did see. Yet Im still going on with my life. You have to learn how to do that. You have to learn to walk on water even when the waves knock you down. Do you see anyone in this school who doesnt miss our crazy ass spitfire? No. Every single person feels it. Its almost been four months since her burial and you and Jimin haven't spoken much without one of you walking away. Your spark died. Jimins smile died. Jin stoppwd making jokes. Namjoon stopped being himself and started to become sad. Hoseok works himself to the bone. I cant stop thinking what if. What if she  was still here? What if they had saced her? What if that never happened? You know what though? That doesn't help anyone. Push through. Go talk to Jimin then come on home. My room needs something like people playing videogames."

I smiled to myself and nodded softly. When he left I found Jimin walking, he didnt look so good. He looked incredibly sad.

Taehyung- "Jimin-ssi...Hey, can we talk for a moment?"

He met my eyes and I could see how broken his soul was and suddenly I remembered how I was after my mom and sister. I knew I was loosing people close to me and I  couldn't loose him.

Jimin- "whats up?"

I jogged closer and hugged him. For a second he seemed shocked but he hugged me back and I pulled him closer, tighter.

Taehyung- "You cant keep blaming yourself. Theres nonpoint on feeling sorry anymore.  That wont change it so you have to get through it. With me."

He looked at me and nodded.

Jimin- "How do you get over it so easily? How can you keep going when you got someone killed and you couldn't save them?"

I made him look at me and sighed softly. He may not grasp this well but Id try my best.

Taehyung- "You dont. You learn tonlive with the choices you made. I leaned that with my mom and sister. A minute later or sooner and shed be alive and well. I made a choice that took two lives and my mom made a choice that saved mine. Your choices may have taken a life but think about it. Who suffers that choice more in return? You have to learn to trust yourself and live with every choice you make."

He nodded lightly and met my eyes with tears. He was going to say aorry again ao I hugged him once again before smiling and leaving. When I got to Jungkooks room he looked at me and I wondered what was with his sudden gaze at me.

Taehyung- "Yes?"

He was clearly irritated.

Jungkook- "what took you so long? That was almost two hours Taehyung. You took forever. Why?"

I rolled my eyes.

Taehyung- "Sorry. DAD. I didn't mean to be late and disappoint you."

His glare deepend at me and I chuckled. He acted like this a lot more recently because I was always out and it seemed to make him jealous, that was the highlight of my days now. Seeing him jealous.

Jungkook- "You scared me. It's not that you disappointed me it's that I'm scared. Something bad coukd happwn to you and Id never know it intil its to late. You know that right? Im scared to loose you Because...I...I don't know. I don't wanna loose you."

I looked at him, no longer able to really speak. I wasnt sure what to say to respond to the look on his face. He looked truly afraid and full of emotion.

Taehyung- "I really am sorry. I talked to Jimin a bit longer than I meant. I could have called and I didnt so thats on me. I'm sorry for scaring you... Forgive me?"

He sighed as if deep in thought.and looked around the room then met my eyes and grinned.

Jungkook- "Fine. I forgive you."

I smiled and hugged him.

Taehyung- "Yay. Thank you.

He pulled me onto the bed and had me laying almost on top on his chest.

Jungkook- "sleep."

I smiled to myself and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep while Jungkook dragged his finger up and down my back.