𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐀; 𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲

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“so.. are we?” bucky asked as he walked into steve’s room and sitting on his bed

“are we what?”

“you know what”

“boyfriends. dating?” steve asked “...no, i mean not yet at least.. i just don’t want to mess it up with you, so i just want to take it slow, is that alright?”

“of course it’s alright stevie. but i hope you know you would never mess up with me because i trust you completely i always have”

“I’m glad. glad that you can trust me. i trust you too buck”

trust that’s going to get me hurt.. If i’m not careful..
i need to stop worrying so much, i know you won’t hurt me stevie..
at least i don’t think you will.. i hope not..

“you can take all the time you need, stevie. i know it’s all new for you and it’s kinda weird but over time you’ll feel less weird, so take all the you need to figure it out” bucky told him

“i’m sure, i know how i feel about you, but i don’t either. ya know?”

“yeah, i totally understand how you feel”

at least you’re being honest. and i get it i do really.
to feel this way about someone who has been in your life forever.
it’s a weird new feeling, that sometimes you wish wasn’t there.
but the feeling can also be beautiful.
the feeling of butterflies in the pit of your stomach.
the dull ache in your chest.
it’s all worth it when you’re with this person.
and you, you’re my person.
and you make me feel this way.
perhaps i’m your person too.
and i make you feel this way.
i hope i make it worth it for you.
like you do for me.

i really wish i could tell you this. to reassure you, to make you feel better about all of this.
i really wish i could trust me i do.

“i’m glad.. not that you’ve felt weird about this, but i'm glad that i can have someone to talk to about all of this, someone who understands” steve said

bucky smiled at him before replying “if you ever need to talk to me about anything, anything at all you can, i’ll always be here whenever”

“yeah, okay. i can do that”

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sorry this is shorter