(DISCONTINUED)The pain never ends , you just get used to it

I'm not mine. I'm his.

(A/N- Slow updates might be coming only because of school . I'll try to be consistent though :) I've also decided to have an update schedule . I'll post every Wednesday and Saturday , starting this Wednesday. I write these chapters in a day and edit it because I get bored , lmao . So yeah, today Monday is an exception but then it's just gonna be Wednesday's and Saturday's :) )

TW- Abuse (sexual , physical , verbal) . Blood

Peters POV
After getting some chimichangas with Wade , I watched a movie at his apartment and then decided to head home, I needed to be back before curfew.

I walk in to see Steven , drunk , watching football , what a lazy ass hoe right?, anyways, I walk to my room only saying a small "I'm here" so he knows I'm here before curfew , he just nods his head and let's me be . I chill in my room texting Wade when suddenly my spidey senses tingle a few seconds before I hear banging on the door . I put my phone away and pretend I was doing school work , I had already done it , I just don't want Steven to take my phone away . When he enters after kicking at the door and breaking the handle 'gonna have to fix that by tomorrow' I think. He slams his fist on my desk and starts screaming at me on how I'm just a fuck-up and a mistake and how I should just kill myself . I know shouldn't believe him , but I do . It feels like everything I do is not right . That I'm trash . That I don't deserve to live . Everyone looks at me different at school , they think I'm freak , but they leave me alone , except for Flash . His friends used to bother me too , until they heard about my aunt and stopped, but Flash hasn't stopped , he's gotten worse . But I deserve it anyways .

While I was lost in thought I didn't notice Steven asking a question until he grabbed my chin and forced me to look at his ,might I add , ugly , face . I look him in the eyes while he says "You know what baby  boy , for ignoring me , you'll be in for a treat" he says , it sends shivers down my spine . But what's worse is that only Wade calls me baby boy . I gather like literally 2% of confidence and tell him "Don't call me that" with a stern yet somewhat shaky voice . Steven has ruined so many names for me . I can't with nicknames anymore . The team thinks that I just don't like my name , it's not that , it's that when they say it I get reminded of Steven , and I can't . Steven asks with a low malicious tone "Oh yeah ? Why is that , baby boy?" Steven asks while gripping my wrist tight enough to bruise it , my jaw as well . "B-Because Wade calls me that" I say . "Oh yeah , is my toy gay? Are you ? Because if you are , you'll enjoy this" Steven says with a smirk as he drags me to his room . I try screaming , but it goes in vain when he tapes my mouth shut . I try squirming away from him but I'm too weak . He ties me to the bed and he starts-

TW- ⚠️SEXUAL ASSAULT ,RAPE AND USE OF DRUGS IS COMING UP⚠️ . RAPE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT IS REALLY FRICKING GRAPHIC , SORRY , SKIP IF YOU NEED TO⚠️

-undressing me . I can't stop him . He injects something in my arm and suddenly I can barely move . I can feel my body but I can't move it . I can't even open my mouth . (So idk if this is accurate . I made this up. If it's accurate ,it was luck , if it's not accurate , pretend it is . Also , I'm talking about the drug Steven used , ok? Ok . )
He starts by taking off my shirt and then starts tracing his fingers along my chest , whispering how much he loves me . He then goes to his pants and starts undoing them . He sticks out his (pickle , nah jk , we all know what's down there) and starts rubbing it against me . I can't move . I can't do anything. He takes off my pants and underwear and leaves me naked . He starts touching my (pickle) while he starts jacking off . I try to move but my limbs feel like jelly .
He then turns me around , hurting my tied arms in the process . I hear him spit and then there a burning pain in my behind . I want to scream damn it , but I can't! . I can't . He keeps thrusting in me . "Oh baby , you are so tight , oh yeah , oh baby omg, you're so good . I'm gonna (not gonna say that word) all inside of you . Do you feel me inside of you baby oh yeah , I bet you do . You must love this with your gay ass" Steven says in a sucky sweet tone . I feel tears escape my eyes and land on the pillow . I can't do anything . I can't move . I feel a warm liquid flood my senses . When I smell it , it's a iron scent . I'm bleeding . "Oh baby , look I made you bleed . I can't stop myself . You are so good" Steven says . (I'm disgusted with myself but I'll do it for the story) . Suddenly I feel another liquid inside me while Steven screams out in pleasure . More tears escape and I'm just laying there . Naked and stripped away from the only innocence I had left . Steven has never raped me . It was only touching and teasing . Never this . After he's done in my back side , he turns me over and starts jacking off my (pickle) and all I can do is look at his lust filled eyes . He starts kissing my lips and my face . He then wiped my tears and said "Oh baby , don't cry . You're gay , you like this , baby don't cry" he says mockingly .