How To Save a Life

Chapter 5

The sun blinded me once more the next morning. My sleep was nothing but darkness so it feels like I haven't slept in months..I still have a hangover out of this world. Wonder how Luke's doing honestly. Is he still hungover? Does he have any memory of the yesterday since he was still out of it? Who knows. I'll ask him at school or afterwards. I drag my sluggish body around my room to search for clothes. I find Luke's hoodie and slip it on not even caring about Ava or what that..thing thinks. I know we were drunk that night but I'm starting to faintly remember the details. I wonder how it felt or more importantly, did he like it? This sent chills up my spine. The thought of what happened makes me blush every single time and i feel a blush creeping on my cheeks. Somehow I managed to finish getting ready for school while I was daydreaming so i headed outside to start walking. I find look about to knock on the door so he hits it forehead on accident followed by a slight whimper escaping my lips. "Rea! I'm so sorry. I was just about to knock. Let me see" I show him my forehead. His expression softened a bit and kissed my forehead where he hit it. My cheeks started to burn with a blush. "Let's go!" I yell accidentally. I tilt my head down in embarrassment. Luke starts being himself- making jokes, telling weird stories that he swore happened to him before but I know they didn't. It made him happy whenever someone enjoyed his stories though. We arrived at school after a long walk. Of course the bitch herself was ready to pounce once she saw me next to him. Luke sighed rolling his eyes. She attacked him with kisses before he could even get out a hello. My jealousy boiled more inside me the more she touched him. Eventually I had to walk away before I attacked her. Why is Luke still with her if she's so controlling? I may never know but I still want to try and find out. My teacher met me at the door and winked. He made me feel so uncomfortable all the time but since he's rich and Ava's father, he can do whatever he wants and not get fired. I feel him staring at me as I walk slowly to my seat. "Raven" he calls me. I reverse back to him with a worried expression. He leans down slowly and whispers "you should wear..less baggy clothes and more tight ones. You'll never catch anyone's attention this way" his breath sent uncomfortable chills through my body. I race back to me seat before I have a panic attack. The whole period he was staring at me making me not pay attention. Ever since he had the previous teacher fired and he filled the position, girls have been saying a lot of things about him-most are true. His words flooded through my head the whole class. Maybe I should start changing how I look a bit? Would Luke notice me? No. It's only to please Mr. Schniter. Not Luke. But he does notice Ava...No RAVEN!! The bell snaps me out of my trance. Luckily before I can get "held after class" I run out and bump into Ava. "Ugh it's you. I thought I smelled a trash can. You almost wrinkled my skirt so I hope you're happy...IS THAT LUKE'S HOODIE?! WHAT IN THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH IT?" I froze in my tracks not knowing what to say. Suddenly, I feel a large hand on my shoulder "I gave it to her because she spilled coffee on her shirt this morning and we were close to being at school already. We didn't want to turn back around or we would've been late" Ava looked confused "oh..okay!" She laced her fingers between his and dragged him off into the crowd of teenagers. Today seemed to drag by and it's only lunchtime. I saw the principal walking out of his office with a box that seemed to have all of his belongings inside. Being the person I am, I walk over offering my help. "Mr. Hill why are you moving everything?" He turns around with tears streaming down his face. Everyone loved him. He will forever be the best principal in the history of principals. "I've been fired. Damned Mr. Schniter told the board lies about me to get me fired" a single tear forms in his eye. He rushes out the door hoping I didn't notice, but I did. I shrugged it off knowing I'll probably never see this man again. I walk to the cafeteria hoping to find Luke somewhere in the crowd. He's nowhere to be found. I decide to walk around some hoping to finally spot him somewhere- with Ava. After about 15 minutes, I give up and go to my cousins classroom, she's my other best friend and she's also a teacher so she lets me come in quite often. "I haven't seen Luke since this morning. I hope he's okay" I say to her. She turns towards me "I'm sure he's fine" she smiles brightly " he might be caught up with Ava or something. Who knows?" I nod. He does spend the majority of his time with her. The bell rings to return to class. My eyes wonder around the halls trying to find Luke, yet again, he's nowhere to be found. Worry floods my body like a river. He's never been away from me this long..have I done something wrong? Did he hate me because of what happened the other night? Who knows..I look up suddenly and spot his fluffy hair in a distance but before I could say anything, my teacher pulls me in the class and demands me to sit down. A tear streams down my face in frustration Why did she do that?! I was about to finally talk to him! Damnit!! I slam my fist on my desk but the teacher didn't notice. This class is History so of course I fell asleep. I'm not a history person mostly because I've heard these lessons a million times the years before. I had a dreamless sleep until the bell scared me awake. I jumped almost landing on the floor, but I shot out of my seat to try and meet Luke before I walked home. Once again his floofy hair in the distance caught my attention. "Luke" I call "Luke!" I'm getting frustrated "LUKE!!" He turns to see who's calling him. He looks over me like I'm a bug on a can. My heart dropped on the floor and I had no desire to pick it up. I ran out of the building so fast I could win a marathon within 2 minutes. I make it home and run to my room. The tears flood from my eyes into my pillow. I throw his hoodie into the floor angrily. Why did he do this to me?! Did I do something wrong? This is so sudden..I don't even know what I did.. Thoughts like this were jumbling in my head. I tried to stand but felt dizzy, but caught my balance. "DAMNIT!" I scream while I punch my wall with full force. Blood pours out of my hand steadily but I didn't care. He hurt me and I don't even know what I did. I may be overreacting but I don't care. I text him over and over again "why are you ignoring me" "Luke what the hell man" "please" I finally give up. It's useless. My grandma comes in "it's time to-" she stops talking once she notices me crying "hey what's wrong? Why aren't you talking to Luke like usual?" Tears burst from my eyes harder than ever causing me to choke on my words. "H-he...won't...talk...to..me.." I finally manage to say. My grandma is purely shocked. Luke and I have been inseparable since day one. We both wonder what happened. She gives me a long hug that seemed to last years and finally left to go tell my siblings it's fine for dinner. She left me alone knowing I wouldn't eat. My busted knuckle started to throb again once I shifted in my bed slightly. Days passed and I still haven't left my room. Not to eat, shower, go to school-nothing. I let my phone die because I had no need for it anymore. My world won't even talk to me. Yes, I have checked. He blocked me on everything. Except YouTube. He was an aspiring YouTuber. Hes not well known like Markiplier or Jacksepticeye but he might get there one day. I decide to finally charge my phone for the first time in days. I get on my computer and decide to go on YouTube to watch Mark, Jack, Wade, and Bob collab a few games. It cheered me up slightly, but not enough to get me out of bed. I find Luke's account. He posted yesterday..should I watch it? No..yes..maybe. I place my laptop down and walk to the bathroom to shower and freshen up a bit. I walk downstairs to find my grandma making breakfast. She notices me "good Lord look at you. You finally decided to come out" she hugged me tightly. "I'll go to school tomorrow. Don't worry." I reply. She smiles brightly and hands me a plate full of bacon. How can I resist bacon? I take my plate and sit in the living room and turn on Makiplier. He's playing a fan-made game called Hearts and Heroes and from what it seems, it'll get emotional for everyone. After 4 hours of watching this, I'm crying my eyes out along with my grandma who I didn't notice sat down next to me to watch this video. My grandma, Mark, and I were all crying because of the emotional message behind the whole game. The next day, at school, people would look at me and snicker. I know Ava was behind this but Luke's never not stood up to her..especially for me. I turn into a hallway to find a picture of me taped to the wall with "edgy teenager with daddy issues" written around it. Everyone was laughing. Hard. I saw Luke laughing at me right along with them. That's it. I was done.